Goodbye- 2008

As the time closes on this year...I just hope and pray that the year ahead will be better( we always do that, don't we?) ....I have learnt a lot in this year...a year of experience, hearbreaks, tears, laughters and memories but the most I still value is the realtion I have made and the relations I broke to maintain my theory of life... I am not perfect, I have never been... I know I have insulted many people, hurt many people and angered lots....Many people have taken me for granted and some who have been the closest for years have now become strangers....but i accept all these as i know there are lots more experiences and mysteries waiting ahead...but still i pray that 2009 won't give me so much pain as 2008...in just an year, thanks to all these experiences, i feel i have aged to 30....and this is not my tiredness speaking...its my heart

To Sir...With Love

A darkness had surrounded me
till you came in my life
I had a goal but no path
and you showed me the way
You took my hand and led me
Till I was confident to travel alone
You gave me a chance
to differ the good and the evil
You gave experience a chance
to leave impressions in my life
You never stopped me
when I went wrong
But always waited...
because you knew I would comebackto you...
You had faith in my talents
even when i doubted it
You removed "laziness"from my dictonary
and most of all...
You respected my ideas
and loved me as a friend
Thank You Sir...
For Everything
I wrote this poem as a tribute to a person who has always held a special place in my life. We have lost contact but he is still in my life, as a guide...I don't think there is any day when I don't think about him. I just wish he was here in person...for I feel lonely without him in this concrete jungle full of barbarians

sometimes....

I was having one of those hectic days today when my friend came online...there are moments in life when u badly wish to have a person who can understand u....understand the simple unlogic behind hecticness of no work...a hecticness where there is a lot of wandering around and there is a lot of forgetfulness...a hectic life where you just wish you could sit for atleast a minute but some work surely comes up...nowadays my mornings have been filled with this and more....
then i logged into gtalk and i saw a li'l ping....my friend was online...its no wonder coz she is online from work...then she says those magical words "i miss u...wish to c u" and my heart stops for a moment...even i have been feeling like that for a long time...just to sit with her, have a cup of coffee and talk about the stupidness and meaninglessness of life. I wish I had friends like that... Now, I am not a person who doesn't have friends but these kind of people are really special...
I guess its right when people say " the more you grow older, the more we wish to have people whom we have known for a long time"...i guess, sometimes in our youth we reach that stage where we behave and think like old people...now is it just my stress talking or my un-counscious subconscious mind!!!

The beauty of Iran

When I first thought about drama from Iran I was astonished coz i have always known about Iran Film but never about the active theatre but when i saw the play they presented yesterday, the modern feminist version of Jocasta, I was very happy. Happy to see a real play, happy to see the energy of youngesters, happy to see the older conservative ethical being spellbound and of course some people had problems with their words which were quite youngish...they used words like " pee" and "fuck". But then, change is the law of the world and if people can't accept change then they are not worth to be in this society especially a place like theatre where change is the essence of survival.
I loved the play by Iran and i feel they did a fantastic job considering the negatives they had to face at the festival and the challenges they had to face within their country...I wish them all the best and a wish to see more brilliant performances by this group in the years to come.

Natural and Unnatural?

I happen to see a blog where there is a mention about "un- natural" and i was trying hard to figure out the difference? i have never really understood why certain "things" in this world is unnatural while some are not...why some relations are unnatural and some are not...i am having a bad time with this differentiation...isnt it all a human made concept to degrade some and to upgrade others....whats wrong to some might be right for others....i wonder how this can be understood....as far as i am concerned....the most natural food in this world is Maggi which is unnatural to everyone else....

Aatmahathya

As part of the International Theater Festival of Kerala, a play from Maharashtra was played on 27/12/2008 at Vijay Tendulkar Nagar. A play that speaks about the suicide of farmers in a small village in Maharashtra. Its a story about the failure of crop harvests and the farmers committing suicides because of pressure from the landlords to return the money. But if we take a 360 degree look at the farmer's situation, we see not only the landlords but also the depression of the farmer who is the sole breadwinner in the family, the loss of confidence as he is unable to cope with the fact that his source of income has failed him and a situation reaches where his belief in God is also lost. He starts loosing hope in life and the future looks bleak to him. The only hope left in life is to end it. When he sees the same situation among his fellow farmers and also see that the family's are recieving money when these farmers commit suicide, the mental compelssion to do such an act increases, he feels that this money would save his family from debt even if it costs it his life. He forgets the fact that the journey of life for his family doesnt end at here and even if he dies his family has to live with this humiliation and the main fact that the sole breadwinner is dead and now his children will have to enter child labour or his wife will have to find a way to live...
A situation is created by the money given by the government where the farmer is blind from the larger picture of life and death and his main aim becomes just to get the money for the family...
This drama is a message to the Govt and the media to decrease the hype surrounding the suicides and especially around some Minister giving money to these families.
Sadly, this drama was not appreciated by the local people of the place since it was never meant for a town like this...if this was to be played somewhere in Mangalore, Kannur and areas suurounding that, I am sure that the people would be able to understand
Also, i feel the people today have very much become used to films and the fictions surrounding it that they are no longer in a mood to accept reality, be it in the movies or in drama

A Wednesday

A Wednesday is a movie featuring Nassarudhin Shah and Anupam Kher...it was never a hit in the commercial sense but after the Mumbai tragedy I feel that the local people will follow this movie more and maybe try to enact it...I would defintly recommand it as a must watch. but enating it will never be affective...
think about the 1st year student who was shot down at Bangalore....all people are on the edge, especially the armed forces in the metros...the child was never to blame coz he got frightened by the police but I never knew that the army and other forces had "the shoot on doubt" order. Will the Govt. now try to frame him as a terrorist who was planning to destroy the MG Road military camp? Will Mr Athulya raise his voice in all the wrong sense just like he did to Mr Karkare?
Just look at my focus, i have travelled away from the movie to reality.

Arya

I am very happy to announce the birth of my neice, Arya on December 23,2008. It was a day before my 24th birthday and it was my Mom's birthday too....celebration!!!
Lots of young Uncles and Aunts are around me and there are lots of unborn Uncles and Aunts....

Year of Badness

A year of bad happenings in the world....a year which no one will forget fast....a year of recession(is it over?) a year of terrorism...a year of change for the US(for good or bad?)
A year when many were left jobless and many others were homeless...a year when many lost their dear ones....

At the end...there is a bright light in this dark tunnel....its a year when everyone stood together to overcome this darkness and people became wiser to understand that the rulers are a mere waste of tax.....hope this spirit of unity continues...to make this world a better place coz its not our private property...we owe to give our future generations the best we can