Cry

Brain- if you cry every time u do it...Then Y do it do it again and again
Mind- then the Masala will not taste good without onion.
Sometimes cooking teaches weird lessons, like cutting onions everytime although it makes you cry only for the taste it creates in the food you enjoy.

We meet

We meet to create memories and separate to maintain them
We meet to love and separate to maintain them
We meet to create changes and separate to maintain them
We meet...Coz it's magic
And separate for life

A game called 'Rush'

My life has become a game called rush. Get up in the morning at 6 and rush to prepare coffee/tea for all and then the day starts with breakfast and lunch to be prepared before leaving for work. Rush through cleaning, Rush to heat water with the rod and rush through the bath and rush through dressing up for work and rush through breakfast and rush to office completely drained and exhausted. But then you pull yourself together coz the day is yet to start after a it's only 10.am. now a new drill of rush begins with cash going in and out, gold loans and complaints. You rectify some and pacify some. You rush through your coffee and try to finish maximum work but then the ATM stops or the CDM breaks down and you rush to the spot with zillions of phone calls from ZO,LHO and where not. You again rectify and pacify maximum and try to calm down as your BP hits the high chords . You rush through the lunch and settle down in seat to the yelling of customers whose demand is more than the moon. Finally, rush through the tokens to close the cash and send the reports before all calls from hell breaks loose. Rush through reports, rush through cash, rush through all requirements and you are ready to call it a day. Go home and the usual story of rushing to prepare dinner, rush to clean all vessels left in the sink since morning and then rush to hit the bed to finally welcome the sleep that was rushing with you since mornibg. Alas!!! Not to be, you hit the bed and you are wide awake and you realise you will wake up to rush tomorrow very tired as sleep again eludes you tonight

Remember Him

Today is a Hindu festival. The first for the new year and anywhere I look all people are busy with decorations and visiting the temple. Y?
Why are people visiting only on these special days and not always? God is remembered on two occasions, trouble or festival. And rest of the times you do things that God shall never forgive

Almost

There was a time when I almost left my country
A time when I almost left the job
And almost left my family.
There was a time when I almost fell in love
And I almost believed in sweet nothings
And almost left my self respect
There was a time when I almost left my life
And almost forgot what I was worthy of
And almost lost my ideals.
There were lots of "almost" in my life
I was charred, burnt and broken
But still I am...me

Welcome ,2017

It's a new year, a new start for many. But I didn't feel anything new. I mean, I am at the same place at work, living with the same people in the same place. So, what's new? Just the calendar. It's only the calendar that changes. Everything else remains the same.

The questions

As you reach a particular age, there are certain milestones to be achieved like age 15-10th Std and then for that year, all you hear is study well and once exams are over, how much did you get?
So, this story continues in everyone's life and for the fairer sex, the question never ends but it leads to a situation where we start avoiding any public gathering. For me, personally, it started from a very small age because I was always well built compared to other people in my family and definitely the darkest of all siblings. And the constant companion in my life became my inferiority complex.
I broke all that and started my personal secluded life and yes the question turned to- why are you alone? Don't you need a life partner? Someone to love you, pamper you and take care of you and my answer was- no thank you I am self-sufficient. Even today I say the same... I am happy alone and I have formed so many habits living alone that I might find it difficult to adjust to another person in my personal space.
And then there is the other reason too, you see I am a dreamer and I have sooo many ideas and concepts about my ideal man that I doubt 1) if he really exists 2) if I can love someone else

The fear...

There is a exerting pain
Not in my heart
But somewhere deep inside
It's a fear so embedded
A fear that I might not forget
The person I never met
It's a fear that I might never love
Like I have loved that man
The pain when I hear a familiar song
And when I see his profile pics change
It's eating me alive and
I Have no more tears to  shed
It was indeed a relation very rare
And a feeling undisclosed to all
He shall forever rule my head
And I shall wait for his return

Four friends

One was filled with patience
To nurture and to love.
The next was filled with emotion
To the weakest and to the poor.
The third was a bit moody
With hidden pain and feelings too shy
Then came the disaster
Ever ready for a jokes and pranks
The four were tied by a delicate thread
Invisible and invincible
They treasured their f'ship even with distance
And promised to stay connected
With simple good nights and good mornings
Coz all were in each others thoughts and prayers;
They were meant to be always
Coz they shared their laughter and their worst fears.

Christmas

It's Christmas, it's Sunday and what do I do? I sit in front of the idiot box for 12 hrs and enjoy. Later I cook a simply dinner of aloo parata and curd. It was indeed a peaceful day

Dec 24,2016

I am 32 today and my achievements so far? Nothing

Demonetisation

Nov 8, 2016 was a revolutionary day in the history of India. Our Hon.PM made a public announcement leaving the country shocked. I still remember the first call I got regarding this, from my mom. I told they are referring to pre-2005 notes since that mission has been on a for a long time but she insisted that it is not so. I didn't believe and then I saw a post regarding the same on Facebook and I decided to change the channel from music to news and yes...all hell had broke loose.
Nov 9 and many days after that the country was in total confusion, rage and temper was on peak high. Rules made and changed trying to meet the requirements to many. People were stranded without money and the banks...well let's not talk about the banks and bankers coz nobody bothered to understand the situation they were in anyways. Public thought bankers are like ATMs, they can function 24*7 without any break and rest and they actually forgot bankers are humans too.
The only people who thought of them as humans are the family members of the few lucky ones who got to go home. The media showed the chaos amongst the public but never showed the tension and confusion of the bankers and what are the rules, strategies and adjustments being done by them to attend to maximum customera with the cash they have in stock coz trust me banks were also not warned and were equally taken by surprise.
Bankers worked continuously for 13 days and no praise to them. We cracked our heads on the tension and chaos and crowd management. In the evening we cracked our heads on the shortage across the counters and the loss we had a personal end. Still, nobody cared. People came and asked for change, but from where do we give when we are ourselves not supplied with any change.
Rules kept changing but it's us at the receiving end from the customers. How to explain to them the continuous change and the reason they can't have as much money as they want.
Yes, the public are waiting, patiently, for the change they were promised, for the black money that will be brought out and the people who will have to justify their income.
How much will be delivered?

Movie of 2016

There has been some good movies in 2016 but I would say the best were pink and dear zindagi. After Queen, I think these two movies are very much female oriented. While pink was a serious movie about the judgemental attitude of society towards modern, independent females, dear zindagi was a simple movie without any drama and in a very simple way it also dealt with the same topic. The judgmental attitude of society towards females, the way they lead a simple life and date before settling down. I think these were beautiful movies but change in society, well that won't happen fast and

Walking in the rain...!!!

I can't feel the dead cold shiver
It seems it's been forever
I've made friends with this pain
I am walking in the rain...!!!
The rain drops hide my tears
And I am smiling for my peers
They should never know what lies inside
There is nothing these eyes cannot hide
I don't know what keeps me sane
I am just walking in the rain...!!!

Once in a lifetime

Once in a lifetime this happens to everyone. Today is special. Today is 11/12/13 :-)

Sea Shells

Come walk with me

Along the sea

Where dusk sits on the land

And search with me

For shells are free

in this forgotten world

Hold me in your arms

as the sun sets on another land

where love is unknown

as this divine relation of ours

The world shall never know

your heart nor mine

but I shall remember you as mine

The one who taught me love

beyond the realms of the universe

The one who shall live in me

as I shall live in your dreams.

Burning Heart

As my borrowed time
reaches it finale
and my dreams burn
I glow a final time
in this beautiful fire.
A fire created in my heart
fuelled by my emotions
A fire that destroyed
my earthly body
and ravaged on my dreams
This fire will keep aglow
till my last breathe
and in the final exale
I shall darken the soul
Till then, my dreams
shall remain in my soul
and my heart... no more.
I shall die a happy soul
living my life to the fullest
and completing my role

 

Benaras

The purity of water
washed off my sins
The Brightness of light
lit up my soul
This is the colour
I wish to live in
The beautiful structures
and the ageless stories
Benaras, a beauty forever
To live here, to die here
To breathe this air
To touch this land

I miss that smell
I miss my heart 

By a Rocking Friend

There is this girl I remember in school
always smiling, funny and cool

I sat behind her in class, where
she talks nonstop with the girl beside her
always getting scolded by the teacher
only to resume moments later

Haha!

Happy, cheery and welcome that
she goes around in class and talks to everyone
ligthing up faces with her chit chat
ocassionally coming upto me and dropping a line

All I could speak to her was about last day's homework
at which she would give me the look
her hands busy copying from her friend's book

In the two years we had been together
I have never been able to make friends with her

But I won't forget the face
one that I would never miss in any place

I wonder...

I wonder what life would be without meeting people like you...people who always live in the virtual world... people whom I havent met for over past 10 years but still continue to be a part of your daily life just like they were more than 10-15 years back.
I know I have more life to lead but sometimes... as I continue to hangout in this virtual world I feel I am trapping myself to my past and keeping myself to a fort that I believe is safe for me(unlike the basic assumption that virtual world is unsafe)... I am loosing the art of making new friends, exploring new frontiers and experimenting new things... as I hangout with my old friends, I wonder how many new ones I have missed... I am not saying that I am unhappy with my old friends but still new ones are also a necessity, right?
I dont expect an answer to my questions, its just a simple question to the vast void out there...
As we grow older, we need more people who have known as in our childhood to make us remember our past, to keep us rooted to ground and for us to remember that they are the reason for whatever we are today.
Thank you my dear old friends whom I meet virtually everyday and the new friends whom I am yet to meet...You guys make me feel alive

Goodbye My Love

As I realize what happened between us
I do realize that I am loosing my lover
My best friend and my guide in life

As I realize that the hands that held me once
And the lips that kissed me once
Now belong to someone else…
I realize that I have lost everything that I ever believed in

I have lost my life and my heart
That you took away from me
I have lost my body and my mind
That was always yours from start

You could never take my spirit
You never could break my dreams
I still have myself
I still have my soul.

Dreams

Dreams keep me alive
they give me a purpose
Dreams keep me sane
and gives me hope
Dreams keep me happy
when sadness engulf me
Dreams....they are most beautiful
when it can be fullfilled
But the unrealistic dreams
make me wish to live further
Dreams...they are indeed special
for life without you
would be a world without sunlight

The year gone by

2011...it has been a very intersting and happening year for me. Made lots of new friends, fought with a few... some people whom I knew from before became close and some went away. Got confirmed in a job that I am yet to start liking but I know I will be here for some more time. I will always cherish this year for this has taught me new things about love and friendship. I know the next year is going to give me pain but then if there is no sadness, will we ever remember God. I am just praying that God will be kind enough to make the pain obselete. Career wise, I have learnt lots of things and I have learnt a bit of money management and people management. I have met the person who can make me do anything that I hate just to see a smile on that face...thats my neice.
I have cried for the dead and my sincere apologies to all those friends whom I hurt a lot. I hope the new year 2012 is better than 2011 and all the love that was showered on me, just continue. Thank you friends and family for making my life worth living...without you people I will not be what I am today.

Dilemma

I am in a dilemma and last night I realised what a pathetic friend I am....long time, on a very pleasant evening in Hyd I had promised a friend that I will attend his marriage, no matter where I am and when the function is. But, the marriage started today and I am still sitting in Bangalore. I was unable to keep my word and I am terribly ashamed. He called me yesterday and the first thing he asked me is when I am reaching. He was absolutly sure that I am coming but I couldnt make it. I am a bad friend and I hope someday you'll forgive me, N...and I wish you and H a very happy beautiful married life. May you both be blessed with the best of whatever you ever wish for and the proof that is your marriage itself

New Assignment

On May 15, 2011, a batch of 2500 people (approx) completed two years probation in SBI. I am one amongst them...many people also got their assignments for the next 3 years but the people belonging to our circle are yet to get it
But, I got my first assignment...work as BM-Cum-Accountant for 3 days in a branch that has 13 staff. Everyone told me that I can do it and I should look at it as a challenge. I was ready for it, a bit frustrated at my controllers but still ready...
But the challenge came with a single customer...she approached me yesterday...she came in puffing because apparently she had gone to the old premises and she didnt know we had shifted which had happened in February. I was shocked.
Then she told, she wants to operate the locker but couldnt remember the locker number, we managed to find that also...then she told us that there is a possibility that rent was due but not deducted from her account. She was out of town for a long time, she explained
She started talking very fast and I found her very weird and slowly the reason for it came out, she was coming to Bangalore after a very long time, her son had just passed away last year.He was 24 years and had had cancer. She was telling me all these and I was not sure how to respond. I was just shocked when she had told she was just coming out of depression...it really must have been pathetic....I simply didnt know how to face this challenge!!!

An Era Comes to an End

Well...from the title it might seem as a great person has died...he was a great but for all the wrong reasons...Osama Bin Laden...a single person who shocked the whole world and brought the largest democracy to a stand still...A real terror...the Enemy No.1 of the world
But its a sad way in which he died...from what I hear he was seeing the sunset of his own life and he was attacked (after a long tracking)...and to see a whole country cheer and celebrate a person's death was just too much to digest and unexpected from a civilised world...i felt as if i was picturising an image of the 16th century where many women were supposed to be "witches" and they were either drowned or burnt alive while men watched and celebrated.
I agree to the fact that what he did to the people of that country was bad and totally uncivilised but "eye for an eye will make the whole world blind"...im not telling that he should be allowed to live but such a big country...im sure they would have had resources to destroy the force, curb his intentions and arrest the main people...make sure they never repeat their actions and no one in future ever does it. What have you gained by killing a person in cold-blood...just blood on your hands and a tag of "murderer"
P.S:whatever is written here are my personal thoughts, dont arrest me for this

Movie

I watched The King's Speech, fell in love with English all over again I watched Christian Brothers and fell in love with Sharath Kumar I watched Urumi and I am yet to decide what hit me!!!

Living with Father

Jan 20: My Father reaches Bangalore. He is unable to adjust to the climate and the place and especially the food available here. He can't eat in a place where non- veg is served and he doesnt like garlic in his food... By 23 Jan. return tickets are booked but thats for April. How will he survive? How will I survive?

Slowly, as the daily dose of fights increase, he adjusts to everything and the climate goes from cold to hot.

Now, he doesnt want to go back and is already talking about coming back soon

For me...it is a real pleasure coz Kitchen has become his dept...i can wake up late and food is ready. Someone to serve me tea when I reach home.

We fight like cats and dogs and complain to the employment dept (Mother)...if I ask him to do anything new he doesnt and says its not there in the employment contract. My Mom enjoys the fights and laughs a lot.

I have never taken my dad out anywhere special and he doesnt seem to complain. Tomo, I intend to take him for a movie and after that...there is no more weekend left for him to enjoy here.

I think he sad about going from here and I dont know what will happen to me once he goes back

Sms inspired thought!!!

Sms:
Life has never promised you anything...Nor has God...But people did...
Some said they will never leave you...Lie!!!
Some said they will love you till death...Lie!!!
Some said you are the most precious one...Lie!!!
Life is made of such sweet lies... All that matters is, how you faced the time when you finally realized those were just lies...We may ask " wouldn't life be much better without these lies?"
But in Truth, the times you lived on those big lies were the only times you lived...!!!
A nice sms I felt and so true...I know many many people who have given these promises and just disappeared after leaving their footprints in the sands of time but there are some people in my life who have been written on stone in my life...and if I am to loose them... Life is over!!! This sms is dedicated to those people...I would never ever lie to them

2011

Yet another year has passed...no new resolutions....
But yes i did decide to re-start my diary

ITFOK 2010

The International Theatre Festival of Kerala 2010...has become a blimmer of the old self.
When this venture was started in 2008, there were loads and loads of issues...people held dharna and there were threats of picketing but all these issues were handled in a wonderful manner and the program never halted.
This year, there is a break for 2 days and lots of juggling around...nothing is as per schedule and no schedule is complete.
What a tragedy

Tribute to a veteran leader

Dec 23, 2010 will forever remain etched in the memories of many malayalees coz they lost a partriachal figure in politics, Mr K Karunakaran...a person who ruled or decided the rulers. There has been a lot of discussion in the past regarding his good or bad and what character dominates the most but whatever be the personal feelings many(just like conflicted feelings I have) he is a person who made Thrissur what it is today and he had major plans like an Airport which never succeeded due to other politicians...Long live his memory

2 movies and 1 exam- 05 Dec 2010

I got up at 6.30 am this sunday because of an exam which starts at 9am...and that too in a center near the market...after the movie, i had decided to catch up with a movie and my old roomie was waiting for me with a friend in Forum...she got us tickets for NarniaIII....it was awesome...also coz I have been a major Narnia fan...After the movie, we felt we need more fun but all the good movies in forum were fully booked...so we decided to go to Garuda mall...as there is a mubltiplex there also...we reached but...there only Harry Potter was the good movie playing and the tickets were completly booked...well thats the case all over Bangalore for HP7...but our friend being a good person in marketing managed to get 3 tickets and we saw the 2nd movie of the day...it was simply great.
The exam...well... as my friend told " you proved yourself that you are eligible to write the exam once more"

The first quarter

The first quarter of my life is coming to an end officially on Dec 24th...I was thinking about writing a book on the memoirs...it would be interesting (to me)...25 years on this earth

A telephonic conversation

After 8 years of living in the shell, slowly I have started coming out and decided to renew the contacts of old schoolmates...this was inspired by a friend who asked me a simple question "don't you have contact or photos of school?" when i told i am feeling lonely...
i became active on facebook and there..."we roar..." group was found...all old pals catching up with eachother...and a very good friend of mine, asked for my contact number telling he cant chat as he is feeling sleepy...finally he called me today and we were just chatting in general...the conversation continued for 2 hours...still its not over...we were talking about the good old days, the students who studied with us and the teachers who taught us...and we both have lots in common since we studied from LKG to 10th in the same class and was split only for the later 2 years...we, together, have seen people come n go in class...people who passed 12th with us...people who flunk and became our juniors and people who flunk and later became our classmates...people who left us after some years and didnt complete the 12th with us and people who joined us towards the later part of our 14 years of school life...it felt great...its not like he is in contact with these people but talking about the common threads brought in lots of fantastic and naughty memories...school...it was one hell of a fun and the best part was that i studied in the same school for 14 years...that way i knew lots of my seniors..the teachers knew me well and many juniors also remember me!!!

Loss

Today I lost a friend...to ego and personal freedom
Its hurting me a lot and I am sad...
I wish I could be old Samy that I once was...never hurt when people come and never hurt when people leave....extremly detached...I have decided to work on it!!!

Low profile

I have been thinking about keeping a very low profile for somedays now...just get away from everyone, change the mobile number and simply sit at home. I am tired of phone calls and the questions that people ask. I am tired of answering questions and not getting answers in return. Oh...i am so tired....

Winter is here

The wind is very cold...its chilling and sometimes freezing
The sun is cheating us in the morning coz when he shows up, we feel its gonna be a sunny day and don't carry our sweater and i freeze on my way back from work...its just a 10 min walk and i feel as if i will become ice soon
At the same time, its kind of pleasant knowing the fact that the year is coming to an end and christmas is around the corner(so is my b'day)....a sad thought that i am gonna be an year older and i think i am an year wiser...
Whenever the year is coming to an end, i always have the "last year, this time" thoughts like the columns in "The Hindu" newspaper....
It was a really pleasant year and I will definitly miss this year
I am just blabbering about something or the other with no specific thoughts....guess winter has frozen my brain also!!!

4 Friends

I watched 4 friends today...a Mal movie starring Jayaram, Kuchacko Bobban, Jayasaurya and Meera Jasmine. The movie includes support cast of Lalu Alex,Ganesh, Salim Kumar and Suraj. Directed by Saji Surenudran and music by M Jayachandran, the movie has Kamal Hassan in cameo. The movie starts with the song "yeh dosti..." from Sholay and maintains this song till the last. After the movie, we end up wondering if there is only one song about friendship in this whole world. The movie works around four people from different lifestyles meeting in a common scenario, they all suffer from cancer and they decide to live their life to the core by doing what everyone wanted to do always. .
The casts have had major make-over but Ganesh looks pathetic in his new hairstyle(read wig). Jayram has lost weight and Jayasurya looks bad with the green lens. Kunchacko looks nice even with the new hairdo.
The camera is also bad towards the later part of the movie and there are some visuals that are blur. But the worst is the high drama that is involved that leaves the people wondering when the movie will end

Delhi can host Olympics

Can we??? This is first question that came to my mind when I read this news headline...
The bite is by Sheila Dikshit, after convincing the CWG officials
If the govt thinks to take the contract and wait for the last moment to complete the work with the help of the jawans..then i think its a very bad idea...
there has been talks regarding looking into the matter of CWG 2010..for where the whole money has disappeared to....
If you want India to be ready for Olympics...give the tenders to the pvt institutions and check on the quality. Take high security cover and plan well......

Elsamma enne angutti

The movie was ok....Kunchacko is his usual self...the new heroine, well...she is no "hidden talent"...Indrajit....wow!!!
He has lost weight and looks younger than Prithviraj now...what a total makeover!!!
One thing about the way he delivers dialogues, he is just like Prithviraj....simply fantastic
I have never seen Nedumudi Venu look soooooo old....it suits him
Jagathy....well, he is the usual self...a brilliant actor and a fantastic comedian.
The story line was very much similar to an old malayalam movie starring Mohanlal and Manju Warrier

Its raining....

I decided to wear black to work today and regretted it in the afternoon when the heat was totally unbearable...come 4pm and it started raining heavily and then it stopped just in time for me to go home...now it has come again accompanied by his best friends, lightning and thunder...now they are ruling here...some people are finding it tough to get back home but people like me who are at home....we are enjoyng this and now...i am just waiting to finish blogging and play some old nice hindi tracks and relax with a mug full of black coffee and tapioca chips that the bought in the weekend... :)

An sms i recieved

Ever Wondered:
Why u start hating that stranger just because your friend hates him?
Why u have a memory attached with the songs your friend loves to hear?
Why u don't feel hungry when u don't have company?
Why u don't mind laughing at yourself when u r with them?
Why u don't go for the class if one of them isn't going?
Why u enjoy even the most flop movie when with them?
Well, may be that's what the call FRIEND!!

Prnchi Ettan

A Mamootty starrer with the whole story based in Trichur (my hometown). He has tried to bing in the accent but not fully successful like what Mohanlal had done in the 80s in the movie Thuvanathumbikal.My friends were finding it difficult to follow the language but it seemed very funny coz i found the main trichur local words like "machu" "gadi" "daave" were missing. Trichur people use the word "ishtta" in almost every sentence but here the word was not much prominent. The support characters of Innocent and Jagathy have done a beautiful job but then for Innocent its easy coz he is from Irinjalakuda and Jagathy is a class- apart.
The character "Pauli" is also very nice and has done a good acting.
Sidhique is a total failure in the accent part and I dont know why Priyamani is there in the movie

Ode to Friendship

Just another day I thought of writing something....and this was created
Ode to friendship is no simple poem
but feelings so true
that needs no odometer to measure it.
Ode to friendship comes with no odium
to all the people
who sees life as an odyssey to be enjoyed.
Ode to friendship has an odds-on chance
to be liked by all
who try to make out the odds and ends of love.
Ode to friendship is an oddment of life
that can never be searched
and the oddity of it finding us is high.
Ode to friendship is an OD of understanding
that can never be decreased
for the oddly fact is if friendship is true

Random thoughts

If lotus is the purest of all flowers, why is it born from dirt?
If humans are supposed to love, then why does the society hate a couple in love?
If love is divine, what is friendshp?
Which is correct- unexplained or inexplicable?
Why are girls expected to like pink and boys are given blue?
Why do we dwell over the past?
Does God also have Deja Vu after creating couples?

Thaverkere- Part 2

18 Sept 2010....a bday celebration of my ex- roomie ( originally 5 sept)....me, her,her cousin n cousin's finace.....got the cake....had a singing knife ( weird), 2 cokes and a packet of potato chips...dinner on her at Bawarrchi and the next day....shopping!!!!
went around commercial like mad gals....since the fiance had gone to office....had the most fun filled moments after a gap of 3 years....it was like re-living the days of thaverkere hostel again....seriously missed you people

Written for me....by a Friend

Mid August morning

Below the Academy ceiling

When I met

A delightful gal

Smile being her first name

Amicability got her the fame

Soon she got the label

The Happy go lucky girl

Her Instant laugh

Made even lame walk

The sparkle in her eyes

Let the darkness fly

That caring hand

Like a magical wand

The emotional hug

Giving me absolute smug

The love for others

Making her the cynosure

That kingly attitude

Always letting the moment rule

She is one nice gal

A quality woman and a perfect pal

Soumya, wishing you luck and great fame

Times immortal long live your name

Sunday- 8 Aug

A very pleasent day in my life...I met N & T...felt really really good coz i am seeing them after a gap of over 6 months...they are my sweethearts...2 decent people I have met in my life....got them both gifts...N got me a watch...it was nice to simply enjoy the silence that we share coz our friendship doesnt require words...they are indeed special!!!

Once upon a time in Mumbai

Once upon a time in Mumbaai is a 2010 film, directed by Milan Lutheria and produced by Ekta Kapoor. The film stars Ajay Devgan,Emran Hashmi, Prachi Desai and Kangana Ranaut in the lead roles...based on the life of Haji Mastan and Dawood Ibrahim... the rest of the cast are ok while Ajay Devgan has done a fantastic job...
There is a beautiful song in this movie but somewhere along you will feel like running away from the theatre
I was shocked when the movie was given a 4 star rating by TOI...its definitly not worth that...
I hope my next movie is better....if there is one in Gurgaon

a wild wild night- 29th july 2010

R & P, my new friends from Gurgaon decided to go out to have drinks... and they were sad that P & I couldnt join them...but then coz of that they went to a place where gals cant enter and came back...totally drunk...we being the brilliant girls decided to take advantage of that and asked all the personal questions in the world...today they realised how easily they were fooled...
We sat and chatted till 1.45 am and there started a new friendship....hope this continues for life...
love u grandpas and mamma

on tue...27th july 2010

Today...i realised suddenly that there are certain people whom we tend to miss a lot and it hurts very badly when we miss them and we wish they were near us....N ...im missing him a lot and for no specific reasons...I wanted this training to be with him but it didnt happen...he had it before me... when he was here for his training he had told me that he didnt find a single good friend and he was missing me but i didnt understand his feelings and now I do....I am going thru the same...In class, I sometimes search for him or someone who is somewhat like him but i dont get anyone....Im tired of this training and thats the truth....I just wish to meet him....and spend some quality time with him....tell him " dear, you are the best"

first weekend in Gurgaon

Meet new people...feel new cultures....wont be commenting on the food....

On sat, we decided to got Agra and the collection started.... meet at 5 am else we will bang the door was the instruction...being the goody-goodies, we were ready by 5.20am and the long await started, not for seeing Agra but for the journey to begin and it did at 6.45 am...we had already lost almost 2 hours when traffic decided to kill another 2....finally, the hungry souls reached a restraunt at 2.30 pm for brunch and the food was not only expensive but pathetic....then we saw the Taj....and beautiful memories of the earlier trip was coming to mind all the time....a similar trip from MNYL...by the time the visit ended, I was totally tired and then we went to Agra Fort... and I decided not to go out but to take rest in the bus....the return journey started and we stopped in a dhaba...the food was amazing and it was more because of the hunger factor...and we reached back at 1.30 am on Monday....took bath and hit the bed..the next day was the public speaking and it was taken for granted " we are not prepared"... i did it ok....i guess...i didnt get many comments...now the second week begins

Journey to Gurgaon

The 2 Ps and I started our North journey on firday, it was raining for some unknown reasons....and as should happen, the three of us had had a bad day at work and had reached the station, finally. In the train, we realised that we had the area all to ourselves, except for one policeman in the night. But then it was cool till a total stranger decided to invade our precious time...Subbu.... a reporter for TOI, a musician and a photographer....he came whenever we decided to sleep or just woke up from sleep...he tried to read us and assess us...but nah....can it be done over a 36 hour journey??? I doubt it....he had his time, singing and taking pix and finally he said 'good-bye' and ' keep in touch'
So, these are what happens over long journeys and I finished reading a book that my BM had given me for the trip....time passed and in the morning we were recieved by P's cousin

Rain

Rain has started in Bangalore....One day I was standing with my friend eating samosas when rain decided to visit us...standing in the shop and putting my hand out....it felt wonderful....i realised that time how much i miss the beautiful greenary of Kerala especially after rains, when everything looks clean and there is no water clogged on the roads thanx to the good drainage...It is one factor that I hate about Bangalore...if it starts raining...travelling in Bangalore becomes really bad ...dirty roads and filty streets....wash your legs with dettol ... going home...hope to see the rain and enjoy!!!

Did i ever tell....

Did I ever tell you about the time I went to Hyd for 2 weeks training from my present firm.
It was fun....the training was in 2 different venues and I got to see many parts of the famous Hyd... I actually fell in love with that place and didnt feel like coming back to Bangalore.
The training was on an all India basis and I got to meet lots of different people, we had cultural night one friday and sports day too....The best part of it was gaining 2 new friends...1 from Jammu and another from Noida...
But thanx to these 2 I never got to see Golconda and had to see Charminar thrice....
Those 2 weeks were simply fantastic and it will be a memory I will treasure in my heart forever....Thanx N & T.

A week at new home

For the past one week, I have been taken care of by my mom and my aunt in my house in Bangalore and it felt really good...
I never had anyone to open the door and provide me hot dinner for almost an year and I am really enjoying this change....
I will miss this once my Mom goes back

Friendship....

Its definitly a wierd world of mine....
I have worked in this office a few months back, done my job and gone back without making any new friends or contacts amongst the seniors and after 2 months when i came back to do the same job, i meet some interesting people. They existed when i had come the first time but now they took an opportunity to know me and i guess i became more open to let them into my life and suddenly my work place has become very intersting...Thank you seniors...M & A

Movies, Music and Books

Movies i wish to posses-
Breakfast at Tiffany's, Roman Holiday, Walk on the clouds, Macknes Gold, Pretty Woman, Shall We Dance
Music i wish to have-
Sufi from Pakistan, Gulzar and Alka Yagnik
Books I want-
Bridges of Madison County, Danielle Steele and any other books....

The trip of a lifetime

On 11th i decide that i have to go to Kerala for Vishu no matter what the mode of transport...I had to cancel my 10th tickets because my leave wasnt fully sanctioned....so I decided to leave on 13th as Vishu is on 15th and Kani is the most important part of Vishu...also 14th is a National Holiday....
13th....i leave the office at 6pm and have a minor accident as the local bus i was getting into started before i could board completly but the excitement of going home was high that the pain was totally forgotten...then i go to Sattelite station where all the Kerala KSRTC buses are supposed to begin the journey but i am disappointed as there are no tickets available...:(
So i leave to double road where i know there are SETC buses...Well, atleast till Coimbatore i will reach without much disturbance...and the time is already 11pm....I get an a/c coimbatore bus in which the a/c is put when there are no people and when the bus is full from Salem, they decide to stop the a/c...finally i reached coimbatore at 8.30 am and then when i approach the Kerala KSRTC counter, there are no employees...reason...is it coz its Vishu?? no its coz no buses are crossing the border both ways....so, i realise that my Vishu is going to be in TN....what a wonderful start to the new year...but i decide to go to Ukaddam from where i know there will be KSRTC buses and i see that platform full of people who have been waiting for the same bus since 6.30 am....i rush to the railway station where i am told the next train is at 4pm...so i ask the people in the railway station what i should do and they tell that there is another way other than Walayar to cross the border and its via Pollachi....so i go back to Ukkadam where I am told there are contineous buses to Pollachi, get into the first bus visible and stand for over an hour to reach Pollachi. I don't think i have ever been so happy to see the red bus as i was that day...i get into a bus to Palakkad coz that leaves first and from Palakkad a bus to Trichur....its 2.30pm...what a wonderful day I had....and when i entered my friend's shop at East Fort their faces were worth the show coz i had become black due to all the dust, heat and TN buses

Office

I have always wondered if there can be a life outside office...for the past one year we have been adjusting to the work environment but now it is adjusting to us...
A few weeks back i did an adventerous trip to Mysore....saw the most important landmarks and came back in a day...i was with 2 of my friends who are my collegues too and it was a really wonderful feeling....Now, the next target is Hampi...hope it too happens....
Its always nice to have friends in a work place like mine where there is a huge generation gap...
and at present we are really enjoying coz there are some 10 of us who are in the same building...be it breakfast lunch or shopping we do it together....

trying to come back....plz help me

its been over an year since i blogged...somewhere i just lost touch with life...the fact that life is to be lived with your loved ones and not be worked in a factory...im trying to rejuvenate....trying to read and write....relearning what i had learnt and trying to unlearn the virtual life....just wish that God will support me in this move....for i wish to live life....King size....
After an year of search i have found some friends whom i no longer refer as colleagues....i hope this relation sticks to me as i long as i stick to this world.....

A day to Mavlikkara

Jan 9, 2008- A trip to Mavelikkara....a trip that was originally supposed to start at 5.30am... then it went to 10.30am coz we had to present some files at work... the number of people- 7, number of cars-2 and more luggages...We were on the way to our Festival Director's house...a special invitation to FINALLY celebrate our New Year...Moments of glory, memories of past- a room at the right of Regional which became our home... the fights we had, the tensions created and of course the moments of happiness when our fight against odds succeeded.
So, the original trip started at 3 after having lunch.Me, Lenson and Mallu in the Innova followed by Sarath, Sanal, Saji and Shailaja in the Santro. The Innova had a stop over at Alleppy and then we had to wait 45 min for the Santro.Reached Mavellikkara at 10pm... had celebrations, music and discussions and the Innova was again ready to return with Lenson at the wheel, me, Sanal and Sarath in it. The time was 1.30 am on 10th.... we reached Chalakudy, managed to drop Sanal and Sarath at Sanal's place...and reached Trichur at 5am.....I believe this is one of the most beautiful days I have ever had....sharing time, food and drinks with people who are extremly like minded including FD's sister and bro- on- law. I have known Saji and Shailaja for a long time but never interacted maybe coz now only the time came and now I am happy for I understood there are lots of people in Trichur whom I could refer as like- minded....Lenson and I share a special like mindedness which can never be questioned for we don't need words to understand each other's feelings.... such friends are rare and I am happy I have him. Saji was always a silent character in my map and now he holds a complete different image of a protective, responsible friend and brother.... I am happy to have met such nice people and thats what I have always called Team ITFoK 2008.

Goodbye- 2008

As the time closes on this year...I just hope and pray that the year ahead will be better( we always do that, don't we?) ....I have learnt a lot in this year...a year of experience, hearbreaks, tears, laughters and memories but the most I still value is the realtion I have made and the relations I broke to maintain my theory of life... I am not perfect, I have never been... I know I have insulted many people, hurt many people and angered lots....Many people have taken me for granted and some who have been the closest for years have now become strangers....but i accept all these as i know there are lots more experiences and mysteries waiting ahead...but still i pray that 2009 won't give me so much pain as 2008...in just an year, thanks to all these experiences, i feel i have aged to 30....and this is not my tiredness speaking...its my heart

To Sir...With Love

A darkness had surrounded me
till you came in my life
I had a goal but no path
and you showed me the way
You took my hand and led me
Till I was confident to travel alone
You gave me a chance
to differ the good and the evil
You gave experience a chance
to leave impressions in my life
You never stopped me
when I went wrong
But always waited...
because you knew I would comebackto you...
You had faith in my talents
even when i doubted it
You removed "laziness"from my dictonary
and most of all...
You respected my ideas
and loved me as a friend
Thank You Sir...
For Everything
I wrote this poem as a tribute to a person who has always held a special place in my life. We have lost contact but he is still in my life, as a guide...I don't think there is any day when I don't think about him. I just wish he was here in person...for I feel lonely without him in this concrete jungle full of barbarians

sometimes....

I was having one of those hectic days today when my friend came online...there are moments in life when u badly wish to have a person who can understand u....understand the simple unlogic behind hecticness of no work...a hecticness where there is a lot of wandering around and there is a lot of forgetfulness...a hectic life where you just wish you could sit for atleast a minute but some work surely comes up...nowadays my mornings have been filled with this and more....
then i logged into gtalk and i saw a li'l ping....my friend was online...its no wonder coz she is online from work...then she says those magical words "i miss u...wish to c u" and my heart stops for a moment...even i have been feeling like that for a long time...just to sit with her, have a cup of coffee and talk about the stupidness and meaninglessness of life. I wish I had friends like that... Now, I am not a person who doesn't have friends but these kind of people are really special...
I guess its right when people say " the more you grow older, the more we wish to have people whom we have known for a long time"...i guess, sometimes in our youth we reach that stage where we behave and think like old people...now is it just my stress talking or my un-counscious subconscious mind!!!

The beauty of Iran

When I first thought about drama from Iran I was astonished coz i have always known about Iran Film but never about the active theatre but when i saw the play they presented yesterday, the modern feminist version of Jocasta, I was very happy. Happy to see a real play, happy to see the energy of youngesters, happy to see the older conservative ethical being spellbound and of course some people had problems with their words which were quite youngish...they used words like " pee" and "fuck". But then, change is the law of the world and if people can't accept change then they are not worth to be in this society especially a place like theatre where change is the essence of survival.
I loved the play by Iran and i feel they did a fantastic job considering the negatives they had to face at the festival and the challenges they had to face within their country...I wish them all the best and a wish to see more brilliant performances by this group in the years to come.

Natural and Unnatural?

I happen to see a blog where there is a mention about "un- natural" and i was trying hard to figure out the difference? i have never really understood why certain "things" in this world is unnatural while some are not...why some relations are unnatural and some are not...i am having a bad time with this differentiation...isnt it all a human made concept to degrade some and to upgrade others....whats wrong to some might be right for others....i wonder how this can be understood....as far as i am concerned....the most natural food in this world is Maggi which is unnatural to everyone else....

Aatmahathya

As part of the International Theater Festival of Kerala, a play from Maharashtra was played on 27/12/2008 at Vijay Tendulkar Nagar. A play that speaks about the suicide of farmers in a small village in Maharashtra. Its a story about the failure of crop harvests and the farmers committing suicides because of pressure from the landlords to return the money. But if we take a 360 degree look at the farmer's situation, we see not only the landlords but also the depression of the farmer who is the sole breadwinner in the family, the loss of confidence as he is unable to cope with the fact that his source of income has failed him and a situation reaches where his belief in God is also lost. He starts loosing hope in life and the future looks bleak to him. The only hope left in life is to end it. When he sees the same situation among his fellow farmers and also see that the family's are recieving money when these farmers commit suicide, the mental compelssion to do such an act increases, he feels that this money would save his family from debt even if it costs it his life. He forgets the fact that the journey of life for his family doesnt end at here and even if he dies his family has to live with this humiliation and the main fact that the sole breadwinner is dead and now his children will have to enter child labour or his wife will have to find a way to live...
A situation is created by the money given by the government where the farmer is blind from the larger picture of life and death and his main aim becomes just to get the money for the family...
This drama is a message to the Govt and the media to decrease the hype surrounding the suicides and especially around some Minister giving money to these families.
Sadly, this drama was not appreciated by the local people of the place since it was never meant for a town like this...if this was to be played somewhere in Mangalore, Kannur and areas suurounding that, I am sure that the people would be able to understand
Also, i feel the people today have very much become used to films and the fictions surrounding it that they are no longer in a mood to accept reality, be it in the movies or in drama

A Wednesday

A Wednesday is a movie featuring Nassarudhin Shah and Anupam Kher...it was never a hit in the commercial sense but after the Mumbai tragedy I feel that the local people will follow this movie more and maybe try to enact it...I would defintly recommand it as a must watch. but enating it will never be affective...
think about the 1st year student who was shot down at Bangalore....all people are on the edge, especially the armed forces in the metros...the child was never to blame coz he got frightened by the police but I never knew that the army and other forces had "the shoot on doubt" order. Will the Govt. now try to frame him as a terrorist who was planning to destroy the MG Road military camp? Will Mr Athulya raise his voice in all the wrong sense just like he did to Mr Karkare?
Just look at my focus, i have travelled away from the movie to reality.

Arya

I am very happy to announce the birth of my neice, Arya on December 23,2008. It was a day before my 24th birthday and it was my Mom's birthday too....celebration!!!
Lots of young Uncles and Aunts are around me and there are lots of unborn Uncles and Aunts....

Year of Badness

A year of bad happenings in the world....a year which no one will forget fast....a year of recession(is it over?) a year of terrorism...a year of change for the US(for good or bad?)
A year when many were left jobless and many others were homeless...a year when many lost their dear ones....

At the end...there is a bright light in this dark tunnel....its a year when everyone stood together to overcome this darkness and people became wiser to understand that the rulers are a mere waste of tax.....hope this spirit of unity continues...to make this world a better place coz its not our private property...we owe to give our future generations the best we can

a loooooooooong time

after a long time i am writing
after a long time i am having some free time(the obvious reason for writing)
after a long time i got to watch a good movie
it features meryl streep and clint eastwood
the movie is an adaption of a very good book "the bridges of madison county"....i might have read the book a zillion times but saw the movie only today....
its a must watch....

NEW JOB

started my new MNC career in dec....its nice....but its hectic
i enjoy it yet....

My brother's marriage

Date- 3 dec,2007
Venue- Souparnika Auditorium, Engadyuir
Finally, a breathe of relief....the long awaited marriage is over...My sweet cute bro, Deepak got married to my sweet cute innocent friend Ramya...a perfect pair
Ok...the truth..this is a love marriage and i had known about this relation for the past 3 years but i couldn't tell anyone coz it was a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig secret...even M came to know about it later...that was a promise i had given my big bro and i kept my word...many people from our "family" came to me and asked if its a love marriage and we kept on denying it...only the old people of the "family" knew it was love marriage.
Now...its a big relief

Chocolate

A Prithviraj, Roma starrer, this mal movie is a real nice one. This story is based in a girls only college that sees a guy in the campus for the first time
The best part of the movie is Lalu Alex as his role as Roma's Father
There is no co-ordination between the music of the movie and the script and the music sounds very similar to the music in Classmates yet that is the only bad part that you have to suffer
The movie had my eyes filled with tears coz of all the laughter.

Om Shanti Om

Om Shanti Om is a 2007 diwali release by Red Chillies Entertainment.
Cast- Shah Rukh Khan, Deepika Padukone, Arjun Rampal, Shreyas Talpade, Kirron Kher etc
There was special appearences by many senior artists like Amitabh Bachchan, Darmendra, Jitendra, Rishi Kapoor, Subhash Ghai, Bappi Lahri etc. Also seen were Sanjay Dutt, Abhishek Bachchan,Salman Khan, Akshay Kumar,Karishma Kapoor, Kajol, Rani Mukherji, Farah Khan and Vishal. I am sure the work on the sets were total fun and full of egos.
But the movie, according to me, was a re-make of Karz(1980) directed by Subhash Ghai.
The song "Om Shanti Om" is from this movie and the clipping is shown at the start of this movie
I should have guessed the whole story when I saw that clipping.
The 2 best parts of the movie- Deepika Padukone and beautiful music by Vishal- Shekhar
One of the most noticed thing in this movie- Shah Rukh, your age is really showing on your face

Rajdeep Sardesai

Rajdeep Sardesai of CNN-IBN expresses what he feels about Mr Kalam which is very true, I personally feel.
I am a big fan of Mr Kalam and respect him for his ideologies...like the way he opened up the Rashtrapati Bhavan for children, love his eccentric hairstyle and everything about this great guy.
I also admire Rajdeep Sardesai, the face of IBN.A prodegee of Roy but unlike Roy, I have felt that his talk appeals to the educated class while Roy can make an LKG kid understand his stand on any issue
Sardesai is also a fantastic cricket player

laaga chunri mein daag

Laaga Chunri mein daag...the journey of a woman
movie under Yash Raj banner
cast: rani mukherjee, konkona sen, jaya bachchan, anupam kher, abhishek bachchan and kunal kapoor
the movie is about two sisters based in Benaras...the story of burden and the severe steps that is taken to keep the family intact...the story seen in all hindi movies yet this movie is different.
the movie is about the father wishing he had a son and the daughter is adment on proving him wrong...the story about good friendship and about true love.
i really enjoyed the movie although i wish i had seen more of abhishek bachchan
a must watch movie

Questions

We usually come across the word "best friend" or "true friend" or "close friend"
i never really understood the concept behind these...so i decided to give it a thought
who will be a person whom i refer as my best friend?
given my character, a best friend for me will be a person who knows that i have an incurable trait of lying and can understand when i lie and when i don't...(s)he should be the person with whom i lie the least, and when i lie, the person should never ask me y i did so coz she should understand that i will lie to her only if 1)i dont wish to break a promise i made to someone or 2) i dont wish to hurt her
the person should never ever be possessive about me and should understand that i will have many friends but not someone like her...and whatever happens, i will always confess in her.
If under any circumstance, i dont contact her, she shouldnt be pissed coz she will always be in my mind even if im not physically present and one fine day she will find a stupid mail in her inbox explaining all the stuffs that was happening in my life and expect the same in return....life will be back to normal as if there was no break

The Sacred Chants

I was in Bangalore this weekend when i came across a composition called "the sacred chants"
it was sung by 2 young artists. So hearing the tune of suprabhadam in a youthful voice was a pleasure but it can never compete with the devotion MSS.
The tunes were of the songs that we have heard many times over in temples and other devotional stuffs but the words werent the same...suddenly hearing the words that we learnt long time back brought back beautiful memories
I heard a bhajan about kaali and remembered the words that i was taught when i was 5 or 6....its amazing how you remember anything that is taught in a particular tune but never remember anything for the exams..guess this is why the old gurukulam system was really effective
the shocking part of the whole thing was the fact that this music was done by the local boys- SEVEN
I was sad that this wasnt a big success in Kerala

Mind Games

This topic is a copy of a topic that a friend once wrote
now- mind games is not something i usually indulge in coz i know how things can go out of control and maybe cause serious problems
influential- i am not
innocent - i am
i am no mind reader to map a person's mind and understand his weaknesses and his strengths
i can never play with a person's emotions or other feelings for that matter
i can never lie into the eyes that are piercing into my soul
i maybe a weak human who looks strong to the outer world coz that way no idiot will try to break into my comfort zone
i am an open book that can easily be read
i am an extrovert with shyness...wierd????
lemme explain- i can be pretty comfy with people, get them comfy with me also...make them speak about their worries and tensions
but im shy coz i cant talk first...i can only speak if that person speaks to me and this rule breaks only around my mom ad my hus
even my sis and my dad have to talk to me 1st so that i will speak to them
so---that my mind....do u really think i can play mind games?get into the person's head and understand what he is thinking?get into his emotions and control it?get to know the person so well that u know exactly the answers he will give to your questions and hence have the pre-planned converstation that will take you to the desired action...no, i am a petite person who can never understand myself who how do u expect me to understand others
so- if there is a mind game master out there, please tell me about myself since im sure u must have figured me out by now

writing

writing is something that comes to me naturally, i dont claim to be an expert or for that fact, any good in that art...but once i sit down to write something, i usually try to do justice to that beauty.
i have won some awards for many english writing activities while i was in college, i dont c a great deal in that fact but many others did incl the professors in the inst. coz that college had the best post-grad students in eng(under the university) and i was able to compete and win against them in all the literary stuffs
now, many people have asked me why i can't make a career in that...many of my relatives have often asked me this and now a friend also asked...it got me into serious thinking
what do i write? i rem a friend once advicing me to write about my life and she will publish coz she was sure it would have made a best seller...now that was when i was 17...what about now?
all the stupid poetry that i have written so far are..well...stupid!!!
my life???its not to be made into a book coz im just in my early 20s and havent done anything great
so guys....c'mon give me some new topic to write on and if anyone tells me to take up a profession in writing...my Q will be gimme a topic coz thats what i lack

Movies

I remember having this conversation in college long time back and let me just present the main part of it here
Rem the movies of the late 70s and 80s???this was the time when movies like zanjeer were released...the movie created "the angry young man" character...this was also the time when the youth of India were undergoing various frustrations like unemployment, economic setback and of course the emergency.
So, when "vijay" was introduced to the youth through the movies, the people were able to adapt to it coz this was what they wanted...a guy who would speak up for the society and finally the good wins over the evil
The early 90s and the turn of the millenium saw a change as characters like raj, rohit and rahul were introduced...while raj and rohit mainly had the image of young guys becoming successful in India and abroad through hard-work the "rahul" characters were the people who were ABCDs...this was the youth who were either in US or UK, had more than what they wanted and just had to make things work for them
Iguess Yash Chopra, Karan Johar and many other directors have been able to embed the feelings of the society into the movies

Lucky

Lucky is a person i started admiring from the time i came to know about her.A woman determined to get the work done her way, doesnt care if she has to break all the norms of the society to get what she wants, a woman who always puts her family before anything but the weakness that she has towards her family is her strength.

Refer:Jackie Collins

bangalore friends

it all started with a coincidence....i was called for an interview and my ex-roomie had the last day for applying her degree certificate on sat.
We left on friday evening and stood in kormanagala for sometime since we had no place to stay...then some of our dear friends helped us.We ran to college to get her things done and waited for my call...this wait continued till 5p.m
in the middle i managed to meet a dear friend, go out on lunch with him and also we(my ex-roomie n me) managed to visit our old hostel and give our dear neighbour a cool surprise...the 3 of us later went to church.
after the interview i went to forum and our plan of visiting ISKCON was ruined coz my inteview got over by 7pm....in forum it was nice....I was surrounded by 3 close friends...we went out to a good joint and then for dinner...took a friend near his house and the 3 of us went to my friend's place...the stay was a pleasure and a good memory thanks to this embarrassed clean fanatic.
sunday was supposed to be a lazy day and a day to meet all the people possible but i ended by meeting nobody coz everyone was out of town...so i decided to spend the time my dear friend.we went to the guys' place in the evening and created hell...i dont rem when i slept off but i do rem waking up at 3am coz i was freezing
on mon i had to decide between meeting a friend and helping my roomie but i finally did what i feel my heart said
thanx to all those special 3 days im in heaven...im looking forward to a happy life(after some terrible times) and i surely hope that the sun that has surrounded me with light will never leave me....i will not be in darkeness like before...i rem seeing many fireflies and mistaking it for the sun and finally ending up crying in the darkeness that surrounded me as the fireflies died...i hope this will be a wonderful sun and not another firefly

chirapunji

hey...cherrapunji is a place i always wanted to visit and guess what??That place is in kerala now...think i hav gone crazy???
its just that, the nature has forgotten the rules of the land...the monsoon is supposed to start from kerala and then travel to the north. i agree it travelled but not completly...its still raning here...i dont rem us gettin rain in sept...this is the time when we are supposed to sow new seeds and then wait for the mild shower that is returning after visiting the whole country.
but now, its raining and there was thunder also...the people who built houses over the paddy fields are really sufferning...although the govt brought the rule that land shouldnt be destroyed i feel that nature herself is making sure that no paddy fields are ever gonna be destroyed further but will the builders understand this?
i belong to a place which has lots of paddy fields and over the past 5 years i have seen this disappear and big apartments replace it...the EMKE group and alike are yet to get the message...hope it won't be too late and there wont be further lose of life

Darkeness - I love you

I once saw a path
that led to the dark woods
A path that was thorny
A path that was uneven
I was amazed by the darkeness
and the horror it symbolised
I made way into the woods
The beauty of darkeness...
so vast that i went deeper.
The darkness embraced me
into their life
It never left me
and i never knew if
it was the dawn or the dusk
I love Darkeness that
submerges me in its love.

pappu pass hogaya

Hey
im finally done with my MA exams and got ok marks....yippee...pappu pass hogaya

A poem i love

Song- Christina Rossetti
When I am dead, my dearest
sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress- tree;
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dew drops wet
And if thou wilt, forget
I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightingale
sing in, as if in pain;
And if dreaming through the twilight
That doth not rise nor set,
Haply I may remember
Haply I may forget

Ernakulam visit

I visited ekm yday(sept 2) to see my old rommie...went in the local KSRTC.
M was also there with me and the moment we got into the bus there was an old friend and then our family Doc also entered the bus...he didnt see me till we got out in the same stop.
I was carrying a sweater to return it to my friend but as expected i left it in the bus.The moment we realised it, we took an auto and went to the KSRTC stand but the bus had left, so the bus people will get a sweater for free.
Then my friend came, we started yapping happily and walked a lot till we realised that no restraunt was open...finally got a place in marine drive, had food(all this time we were talking continously) and then we decided to go for a boat ride(its not as if there are much options also)...when we got into the boat, there was no one else...appol we had to wait till the boat was filled(sitting in the boat and talking for and hour and then the ride took another one hour)...now what to do??so we decided to hit the BIGGEST mall in ekm...its called baypride tower and i felt city center is better..this place had just 2 storeys...i agree that it had all the major brands and a barista but don't tell me its the biggest...and the worst thing ever...it has a board which says "the forum"...how dare they insult our tharvadu...so we roamed around, made a big hell had some coffee and returned to the KSRTC stand
my friend was supposed to get down near her college and by the time she was leaving, she started crying in the bus...everytime i leave she cries....its sort of become a ritual now...told her to get a transfer and en-roll for the same course in Trichur and she can visit us anytime but the poor soul is suffering among the narrow- minded mals...i completly understand coz no one can be like me....

2 nice peoms

Accept me as I am-I have no guarantee.
A claim to perfection I have not.
Perfect I cannot be. I, like you.....am human.
Prone to make mistakes.
Failure is not a character flaw,
Just a part of the human makeup.
I live, I laugh and I also learn.
My knowledge is incomplete.
I am searching all the time,
in waking hours as well as sleep.
I have a long road to travel, as well as you do.
We learn our lessons on the way.
Wisdom we shall acrue.
Accept me as I am Because I am ....me.
And You are you.
No one like me in the world.
That is my only guarantee.
God Bless....

The second one:

Accept Me

I am I
Do not change me
Nor put me down
Accept me for what I am
NO.... you need not agree with me
But accept me
For I am total in being
I have my faults
I have my gifts
But that is who I am
Perfect I will never be
Allow me to be uninhibited
Do not pressure me into feeling
what I do not feel
Accept me when I am flying high
As I have accepted you when
You were flying high
Do not put me down...nor make
me feel unhappy about me
I am I
And I like being what I am
ME

orkut

i was chatting with a good friend(Very few of them left) and i realised something...i was wondering why orkut got the youth icon of the year award when i was personally feeling it should have been abhishek bachchan.
if u can understand my reasoning im sure you will also agree...what is the most common thing on orkut???"strangers dont add me";"im here just to keep in touch with my old friends" etc etc...even i used to follow this until i realised the blunder i was doing...i was keeping away from new friends who could give me new ideas...instead im maintaining contact with old friends and discussing the past we had together, the school days and the college life...im not telling its bad but in this manner, arent we sort of showing ourselves that we prefer to live in the past coz its over and hence its secure and becomming afraid of facing the future...won't this make us cowards?????
i voted for aby not for his good- looks but for what he is today...when he entered the film industry, he was named a failure and his rival was hritik roshan...then he was given many films in which he looked more like amitabh coz the directors thought that would make him sucessful, but even that failed...so he waited and created some magic with his new sexy look...this way he made a niche for himself and was able to get out of amitabh's shoes...nowadays i don't hear any media comparing him with Big B....so don't u think that he should have been our icon instead of this chatting forum that gives imp to dummy ids, sex talk and other stupid things

so true that i cant face it

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after one month

I wasnt doin anythin great for the past 1 month....did a small project on kerala tourism which was cool...hope to get a good sponsor for that
yday had an event in joy international, trichur...was told to co-ordinate in trichur coz the event firm was from ekm....
i was told abt the event 3 days before and then i was told that the event was cancelled so i didnt concentrate on it and again on the night of the event i was told its happening....all of a sudden i needed 2 girls who are smart like me, good- looking like me, who can handle the 7.30- 10.30 job like me and was ready to wear black trousers and white shirt.....any girls like that in trichur!!!nah!!! finally i rembered my cousin's daughters. twins!!!
cool....but only 1 person had pure black skirt so she and i did the job....it was fun...ranjini haridas was theMC. it was an event for a pharma company and i got along with the regional head of the pharma and some event co-ordinators from cochin....the event was supposed to have 40 families but only 20 showed up..not surprisig considering its the season of fever and onam and it was friday night ....
there were lots of games which was nice...the most funny thing though i found was ranjini haridas...she kept on pulling her pants up and her t-shirt down...is she aacting as if counscious of showing skin???i dont know but if she was really conscious(which i dont think she was)then she wouldnt have chose those cloths
best part- got 450 rs and some nice friends...also understood that there is a good- looking captain in joys...wonder if there is any vacany in joys ;)

I fail...

I fail to recognise the dawn from the dusk
due to the darkeness that surrounds me.

I fail to recognise the sounds around me
thanks to the muteness in me.

I fail to speak to anyone
due to the constant talks in my head.

I fail to do many things in life
yet death fails me too.

some quotes...by self and others

1) A human being is never what he is but the self he seeks.

2)Enormous blunders hurting a heart gains its forgiveness but one single mstake breaking a heart loses its forgiveness.

3)Friendship is a transitory art, subject to discontinuance without further notice.

4)The best proof of love is trust.

5)A second is enough to love a person and an action is enough to hate him.

6)You smiled and talked to m of nothing and i felt that for this i had been waiting long.

7)What you are you do not see, what you see is your shadow.

8)There is some self- interest behind every friendship. There is no friendship without self interst.This is the bitter truth.

9)The thread that binds us in love should be removed once it starts cutting our skin.

10)Flattery is like chewing gum, enjoy it but dont swallow it.

These are some of my favourite thoughts...some i think some others think for me...do tell me if it makes any sense in your life...i really love the ones in bold.

A Week In Bangalore

hi...i think last week was my final week in the beautiful city...im sure i will miss that place which i always called home.

it started in a very nice manner coz if i had to stay in my old hostel i will have to pay Rs.250 per night...thats too expensive so i decided that i will spend the night at my juniors' place and leave everything else in my old hostel room(the memories).
i reach hostel and smartly wake up my (ex)roomie who had slept just 10 min back coz she was preparing for her exams...then...even without brushin my teeth i start blabbering about my life in the past 6 months...she was ready to curse me im sure coz she badly wanted to sleep...finally she realised its not gonna happen so she too started chattin...then our dear warden entered and asked if i will be staying for which she got a sad reply(sorry i wont let you make more money from me).i called myclassmate and decided to do group study but on what??we both dont have any notes...so we went to a cafe and started downloading the "notes".. stduies never happened coz we were busy catching up with all the gossip(now there is more coz we are working).
soon it was night and i realised i hadnt studied the whole day...i went to my juniors' place and thought of studyin wen they started playin rummy, poker and bluff...now do u really think i studied...played till 2am and then woke up 7 to go to the hostel...exam at 9.30am...u can easily guess how it was. my sweet boss called me and told to prepare a presentation for the trainin that was supposed to happen in kerala from tomorrow(ha..wat can i do)he finally asked me wat was happenin coz he called to my hostel and they told im not there at the same time i was very much there but wasnt paying..cant blame them can i???
the next day was my viva voce...i was all unprepared and waited till 4pm to get my turn...then the next paper was my supposed- to - be specialization but i never bothered to study coz i never had notes and this is a very general paper...we were busy playin rummy
the next day was sunday...i slept..met some friends and also visited "tharvadu" and on monday it was business coz i went to the company's bangalore dealer's office and was basically explainin wat to do...the dear chettan over there was askin me wat my plan was since i didnt have any exam.accordin to him it was "dont you think you should be going home???"
the next day was fun...the 3 of us decided to hit commercial street and bought lots of stuffs. it was our final shoppin together and may that never be erased from our memories...that day i took a final pic of my dear home and its still in my mobile.
souvenirs are perishable; memories are not

finally...

Hey
finally...i got my first paycheck...cool...yet to treat my friends!!!
finally...im done with my post grad exams...plz dont bother to ask how it went coz i wasnt able to study anythin.
finally...it rained in kerala..now its contineous downpour...im feelin so lazy

Hiyya

Hey...today is my idol's b'day...many many happy returns of the day Stephen Waugh...to you too Mark Waugh.

So..its june...the month of beautiful monsoon showers...the month where i dont feel like gettin up from bed coz of the lazy climate and this month i will be writin my final exam...finally my post grads will be over(if i pass...a clause i always add)...a journey thru the world of books that i started at the age of 3 will be over and still my future is a question which i always ask...life is flowing...where???
everyone around is askin me what my intentions are after exams and i dont have an answer...thats the typical me na!!!
i wish i could take a total 1 year break and just travel the whole of India but that doesnt happen to people in my gen...thats meant only in the movies nowadays.
i feel this is esp true coz im surrounded by people who think, eat, drink and breathe just business...surrounded by 3 business minds(my bosses) who are busy makin money every second...i sometimes feel that they are not human...martians maybe...
im no business mind..i very well lack those stuffs..but i hope i will be able to live upto the expectations of these people....

pray for me...pray that i pass this sem too..so that i can end this journey for the time being...wen did i ever say i will not study further...i have plans to study...but work???im yet to decide on this seriously.