Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Lucky

Lucky is a person i started admiring from the time i came to know about her.A woman determined to get the work done her way, doesnt care if she has to break all the norms of the society to get what she wants, a woman who always puts her family before anything but the weakness that she has towards her family is her strength.

Refer:Jackie Collins

bangalore friends

it all started with a coincidence....i was called for an interview and my ex-roomie had the last day for applying her degree certificate on sat.
We left on friday evening and stood in kormanagala for sometime since we had no place to stay...then some of our dear friends helped us.We ran to college to get her things done and waited for my call...this wait continued till 5p.m
in the middle i managed to meet a dear friend, go out on lunch with him and also we(my ex-roomie n me) managed to visit our old hostel and give our dear neighbour a cool surprise...the 3 of us later went to church.
after the interview i went to forum and our plan of visiting ISKCON was ruined coz my inteview got over by 7pm....in forum it was nice....I was surrounded by 3 close friends...we went out to a good joint and then for dinner...took a friend near his house and the 3 of us went to my friend's place...the stay was a pleasure and a good memory thanks to this embarrassed clean fanatic.
sunday was supposed to be a lazy day and a day to meet all the people possible but i ended by meeting nobody coz everyone was out of town...so i decided to spend the time my dear friend.we went to the guys' place in the evening and created hell...i dont rem when i slept off but i do rem waking up at 3am coz i was freezing
on mon i had to decide between meeting a friend and helping my roomie but i finally did what i feel my heart said
thanx to all those special 3 days im in heaven...im looking forward to a happy life(after some terrible times) and i surely hope that the sun that has surrounded me with light will never leave me....i will not be in darkeness like before...i rem seeing many fireflies and mistaking it for the sun and finally ending up crying in the darkeness that surrounded me as the fireflies died...i hope this will be a wonderful sun and not another firefly

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

chirapunji

hey...cherrapunji is a place i always wanted to visit and guess what??That place is in kerala now...think i hav gone crazy???
its just that, the nature has forgotten the rules of the land...the monsoon is supposed to start from kerala and then travel to the north. i agree it travelled but not completly...its still raning here...i dont rem us gettin rain in sept...this is the time when we are supposed to sow new seeds and then wait for the mild shower that is returning after visiting the whole country.
but now, its raining and there was thunder also...the people who built houses over the paddy fields are really sufferning...although the govt brought the rule that land shouldnt be destroyed i feel that nature herself is making sure that no paddy fields are ever gonna be destroyed further but will the builders understand this?
i belong to a place which has lots of paddy fields and over the past 5 years i have seen this disappear and big apartments replace it...the EMKE group and alike are yet to get the message...hope it won't be too late and there wont be further lose of life

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Darkeness - I love you

I once saw a path
that led to the dark woods
A path that was thorny
A path that was uneven
I was amazed by the darkeness
and the horror it symbolised
I made way into the woods
The beauty of darkeness...
so vast that i went deeper.
The darkness embraced me
into their life
It never left me
and i never knew if
it was the dawn or the dusk
I love Darkeness that
submerges me in its love.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

pappu pass hogaya

Hey
im finally done with my MA exams and got ok marks....yippee...pappu pass hogaya

Monday, September 03, 2007

A poem i love

Song- Christina Rossetti
When I am dead, my dearest
sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress- tree;
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dew drops wet
And if thou wilt, forget
I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightingale
sing in, as if in pain;
And if dreaming through the twilight
That doth not rise nor set,
Haply I may remember
Haply I may forget

Ernakulam visit

I visited ekm yday(sept 2) to see my old rommie...went in the local KSRTC.
M was also there with me and the moment we got into the bus there was an old friend and then our family Doc also entered the bus...he didnt see me till we got out in the same stop.
I was carrying a sweater to return it to my friend but as expected i left it in the bus.The moment we realised it, we took an auto and went to the KSRTC stand but the bus had left, so the bus people will get a sweater for free.
Then my friend came, we started yapping happily and walked a lot till we realised that no restraunt was open...finally got a place in marine drive, had food(all this time we were talking continously) and then we decided to go for a boat ride(its not as if there are much options also)...when we got into the boat, there was no one else...appol we had to wait till the boat was filled(sitting in the boat and talking for and hour and then the ride took another one hour)...now what to do??so we decided to hit the BIGGEST mall in ekm...its called baypride tower and i felt city center is better..this place had just 2 storeys...i agree that it had all the major brands and a barista but don't tell me its the biggest...and the worst thing ever...it has a board which says "the forum"...how dare they insult our tharvadu...so we roamed around, made a big hell had some coffee and returned to the KSRTC stand
my friend was supposed to get down near her college and by the time she was leaving, she started crying in the bus...everytime i leave she cries....its sort of become a ritual now...told her to get a transfer and en-roll for the same course in Trichur and she can visit us anytime but the poor soul is suffering among the narrow- minded mals...i completly understand coz no one can be like me....

Friday, August 31, 2007

2 nice peoms

Accept me as I am-I have no guarantee.
A claim to perfection I have not.
Perfect I cannot be. I, like you.....am human.
Prone to make mistakes.
Failure is not a character flaw,
Just a part of the human makeup.
I live, I laugh and I also learn.
My knowledge is incomplete.
I am searching all the time,
in waking hours as well as sleep.
I have a long road to travel, as well as you do.
We learn our lessons on the way.
Wisdom we shall acrue.
Accept me as I am Because I am ....me.
And You are you.
No one like me in the world.
That is my only guarantee.
God Bless....

The second one:

Accept Me

I am I
Do not change me
Nor put me down
Accept me for what I am
NO.... you need not agree with me
But accept me
For I am total in being
I have my faults
I have my gifts
But that is who I am
Perfect I will never be
Allow me to be uninhibited
Do not pressure me into feeling
what I do not feel
Accept me when I am flying high
As I have accepted you when
You were flying high
Do not put me down...nor make
me feel unhappy about me
I am I
And I like being what I am
ME

orkut

i was chatting with a good friend(Very few of them left) and i realised something...i was wondering why orkut got the youth icon of the year award when i was personally feeling it should have been abhishek bachchan.
if u can understand my reasoning im sure you will also agree...what is the most common thing on orkut???"strangers dont add me";"im here just to keep in touch with my old friends" etc etc...even i used to follow this until i realised the blunder i was doing...i was keeping away from new friends who could give me new ideas...instead im maintaining contact with old friends and discussing the past we had together, the school days and the college life...im not telling its bad but in this manner, arent we sort of showing ourselves that we prefer to live in the past coz its over and hence its secure and becomming afraid of facing the future...won't this make us cowards?????
i voted for aby not for his good- looks but for what he is today...when he entered the film industry, he was named a failure and his rival was hritik roshan...then he was given many films in which he looked more like amitabh coz the directors thought that would make him sucessful, but even that failed...so he waited and created some magic with his new sexy look...this way he made a niche for himself and was able to get out of amitabh's shoes...nowadays i don't hear any media comparing him with Big B....so don't u think that he should have been our icon instead of this chatting forum that gives imp to dummy ids, sex talk and other stupid things

so true that i cant face it

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Saturday, August 25, 2007

after one month

I wasnt doin anythin great for the past 1 month....did a small project on kerala tourism which was cool...hope to get a good sponsor for that
yday had an event in joy international, trichur...was told to co-ordinate in trichur coz the event firm was from ekm....
i was told abt the event 3 days before and then i was told that the event was cancelled so i didnt concentrate on it and again on the night of the event i was told its happening....all of a sudden i needed 2 girls who are smart like me, good- looking like me, who can handle the 7.30- 10.30 job like me and was ready to wear black trousers and white shirt.....any girls like that in trichur!!!nah!!! finally i rembered my cousin's daughters. twins!!!
cool....but only 1 person had pure black skirt so she and i did the job....it was fun...ranjini haridas was theMC. it was an event for a pharma company and i got along with the regional head of the pharma and some event co-ordinators from cochin....the event was supposed to have 40 families but only 20 showed up..not surprisig considering its the season of fever and onam and it was friday night ....
there were lots of games which was nice...the most funny thing though i found was ranjini haridas...she kept on pulling her pants up and her t-shirt down...is she aacting as if counscious of showing skin???i dont know but if she was really conscious(which i dont think she was)then she wouldnt have chose those cloths
best part- got 450 rs and some nice friends...also understood that there is a good- looking captain in joys...wonder if there is any vacany in joys ;)

Friday, June 22, 2007

I fail...

I fail to recognise the dawn from the dusk
due to the darkeness that surrounds me.

I fail to recognise the sounds around me
thanks to the muteness in me.

I fail to speak to anyone
due to the constant talks in my head.

I fail to do many things in life
yet death fails me too.

some quotes...by self and others

1) A human being is never what he is but the self he seeks.

2)Enormous blunders hurting a heart gains its forgiveness but one single mstake breaking a heart loses its forgiveness.

3)Friendship is a transitory art, subject to discontinuance without further notice.

4)The best proof of love is trust.

5)A second is enough to love a person and an action is enough to hate him.

6)You smiled and talked to m of nothing and i felt that for this i had been waiting long.

7)What you are you do not see, what you see is your shadow.

8)There is some self- interest behind every friendship. There is no friendship without self interst.This is the bitter truth.

9)The thread that binds us in love should be removed once it starts cutting our skin.

10)Flattery is like chewing gum, enjoy it but dont swallow it.

These are some of my favourite thoughts...some i think some others think for me...do tell me if it makes any sense in your life...i really love the ones in bold.

A Week In Bangalore

hi...i think last week was my final week in the beautiful city...im sure i will miss that place which i always called home.

it started in a very nice manner coz if i had to stay in my old hostel i will have to pay Rs.250 per night...thats too expensive so i decided that i will spend the night at my juniors' place and leave everything else in my old hostel room(the memories).
i reach hostel and smartly wake up my (ex)roomie who had slept just 10 min back coz she was preparing for her exams...then...even without brushin my teeth i start blabbering about my life in the past 6 months...she was ready to curse me im sure coz she badly wanted to sleep...finally she realised its not gonna happen so she too started chattin...then our dear warden entered and asked if i will be staying for which she got a sad reply(sorry i wont let you make more money from me).i called myclassmate and decided to do group study but on what??we both dont have any notes...so we went to a cafe and started downloading the "notes".. stduies never happened coz we were busy catching up with all the gossip(now there is more coz we are working).
soon it was night and i realised i hadnt studied the whole day...i went to my juniors' place and thought of studyin wen they started playin rummy, poker and bluff...now do u really think i studied...played till 2am and then woke up 7 to go to the hostel...exam at 9.30am...u can easily guess how it was. my sweet boss called me and told to prepare a presentation for the trainin that was supposed to happen in kerala from tomorrow(ha..wat can i do)he finally asked me wat was happenin coz he called to my hostel and they told im not there at the same time i was very much there but wasnt paying..cant blame them can i???
the next day was my viva voce...i was all unprepared and waited till 4pm to get my turn...then the next paper was my supposed- to - be specialization but i never bothered to study coz i never had notes and this is a very general paper...we were busy playin rummy
the next day was sunday...i slept..met some friends and also visited "tharvadu" and on monday it was business coz i went to the company's bangalore dealer's office and was basically explainin wat to do...the dear chettan over there was askin me wat my plan was since i didnt have any exam.accordin to him it was "dont you think you should be going home???"
the next day was fun...the 3 of us decided to hit commercial street and bought lots of stuffs. it was our final shoppin together and may that never be erased from our memories...that day i took a final pic of my dear home and its still in my mobile.
souvenirs are perishable; memories are not

finally...

Hey
finally...i got my first paycheck...cool...yet to treat my friends!!!
finally...im done with my post grad exams...plz dont bother to ask how it went coz i wasnt able to study anythin.
finally...it rained in kerala..now its contineous downpour...im feelin so lazy

Saturday, June 02, 2007

Hiyya

Hey...today is my idol's b'day...many many happy returns of the day Stephen Waugh...to you too Mark Waugh.

So..its june...the month of beautiful monsoon showers...the month where i dont feel like gettin up from bed coz of the lazy climate and this month i will be writin my final exam...finally my post grads will be over(if i pass...a clause i always add)...a journey thru the world of books that i started at the age of 3 will be over and still my future is a question which i always ask...life is flowing...where???
everyone around is askin me what my intentions are after exams and i dont have an answer...thats the typical me na!!!
i wish i could take a total 1 year break and just travel the whole of India but that doesnt happen to people in my gen...thats meant only in the movies nowadays.
i feel this is esp true coz im surrounded by people who think, eat, drink and breathe just business...surrounded by 3 business minds(my bosses) who are busy makin money every second...i sometimes feel that they are not human...martians maybe...
im no business mind..i very well lack those stuffs..but i hope i will be able to live upto the expectations of these people....

pray for me...pray that i pass this sem too..so that i can end this journey for the time being...wen did i ever say i will not study further...i have plans to study...but work???im yet to decide on this seriously.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Aussies Win


My country has won the world cup...thrice in a row...won by 53 runs over the mighty Srilankans. I am the happiest person for Australia.

The land Sir Don Bradman and Steve Waugh has become worthy of the world cup. They really deserve it...especially after a 23 contineous world cup match victories.

This is the second time that the Aussies are winning the world cup under the leadership of Ricky Ponting and i should say that this man has really lead from the front.

I would never say that the opposition was bad coz they are themselves a very strong team with a excellent bowling line-up including Vaas and Muralitharan. Maybe what they lacked in this match was Lady Luck.

While US has been a land of dreams for many people but for me it has always been Australia and if anyone is ready to give me a visa to that beautiful country ...please do it fast...i promise i will never bother India after that.

Love you Australia...Love you Sir Don Bradman...Love you Steve Waugh..Love you mate!!!

My Best Friend's Wedding

29/04/2007
my best friend's wedding at Lulu conventional hall, puzhakkal.
it was a very nice event...the best part of course was i met her cousin brother after a long time.he has 24 hrs to take revenge for whatever i did to him 10 years back.the war has just begun.he still remembers the song i made him hear over a telephone.
then there was the groom who has been getting mails from me regularly regarding the bride.he is dead now...im sure.
it was really nice.anyone who knew me said my sari was nice...obviously coz it was bride's choice and she has been my fashion advisor for many many years.

it is also one of my friend's birthday today...i wish him a happy and successful life ahead.
this is one guy with whom i have had the most number of serious fights and we are yet to talk after the last fight which was more than 2 weeks back...still i love him and pray for him regularly.

Friday, April 27, 2007

yippee!!!

happy news for all the followers of my blog(i kno there arent any)i passed my december exams although i wrote those exams without any material to study and a typhoid to control...maybe i have brains...thank you god

life has no meanin

wel..its been a very very long time...i quit my job and i decided to start some business on my own...hope it works well...for gaining knowledge i decided to do a S.India tour.Chennai- Kerala-Bangalore-Kerala.
After a month of travelling i relaised that im still stuck in the same old position. To get over the gloominess i decided to meet some of my friends who had apparently quit the company soon after me.
There destiny played a twist ...i met my challenge...i really dont remember any person having a verbal fight with me without him even knowing my name but this guy did it. I dont remember anyone offering me a job after a 30 minutes conversation but this guy did that too. I really never thought i would meet a person who sees business in every relation but there he is.
Should have known that he would break all rules to get whatever he wants.Didnt his name suggest it. A very uncommon Christian name among malayalees...the name of a king who went against the rule of the catholic church and married six times in his lifetime...the name of the king who intoduced Protestantism to England.
A chance to work with this business brains(sometimes i feel he lacks emotions)...lets see where life is taking me now