Cry

Brain- if you cry every time u do it...Then Y do it do it again and again
Mind- then the Masala will not taste good without onion.
Sometimes cooking teaches weird lessons, like cutting onions everytime although it makes you cry only for the taste it creates in the food you enjoy.

We meet

We meet to create memories and separate to maintain them
We meet to love and separate to maintain them
We meet to create changes and separate to maintain them
We meet...Coz it's magic
And separate for life

A game called 'Rush'

My life has become a game called rush. Get up in the morning at 6 and rush to prepare coffee/tea for all and then the day starts with breakfast and lunch to be prepared before leaving for work. Rush through cleaning, Rush to heat water with the rod and rush through the bath and rush through dressing up for work and rush through breakfast and rush to office completely drained and exhausted. But then you pull yourself together coz the day is yet to start after a it's only 10.am. now a new drill of rush begins with cash going in and out, gold loans and complaints. You rectify some and pacify some. You rush through your coffee and try to finish maximum work but then the ATM stops or the CDM breaks down and you rush to the spot with zillions of phone calls from ZO,LHO and where not. You again rectify and pacify maximum and try to calm down as your BP hits the high chords . You rush through the lunch and settle down in seat to the yelling of customers whose demand is more than the moon. Finally, rush through the tokens to close the cash and send the reports before all calls from hell breaks loose. Rush through reports, rush through cash, rush through all requirements and you are ready to call it a day. Go home and the usual story of rushing to prepare dinner, rush to clean all vessels left in the sink since morning and then rush to hit the bed to finally welcome the sleep that was rushing with you since mornibg. Alas!!! Not to be, you hit the bed and you are wide awake and you realise you will wake up to rush tomorrow very tired as sleep again eludes you tonight

Remember Him

Today is a Hindu festival. The first for the new year and anywhere I look all people are busy with decorations and visiting the temple. Y?
Why are people visiting only on these special days and not always? God is remembered on two occasions, trouble or festival. And rest of the times you do things that God shall never forgive

Almost

There was a time when I almost left my country
A time when I almost left the job
And almost left my family.
There was a time when I almost fell in love
And I almost believed in sweet nothings
And almost left my self respect
There was a time when I almost left my life
And almost forgot what I was worthy of
And almost lost my ideals.
There were lots of "almost" in my life
I was charred, burnt and broken
But still I am...me

Welcome ,2017

It's a new year, a new start for many. But I didn't feel anything new. I mean, I am at the same place at work, living with the same people in the same place. So, what's new? Just the calendar. It's only the calendar that changes. Everything else remains the same.

The questions

As you reach a particular age, there are certain milestones to be achieved like age 15-10th Std and then for that year, all you hear is study well and once exams are over, how much did you get?
So, this story continues in everyone's life and for the fairer sex, the question never ends but it leads to a situation where we start avoiding any public gathering. For me, personally, it started from a very small age because I was always well built compared to other people in my family and definitely the darkest of all siblings. And the constant companion in my life became my inferiority complex.
I broke all that and started my personal secluded life and yes the question turned to- why are you alone? Don't you need a life partner? Someone to love you, pamper you and take care of you and my answer was- no thank you I am self-sufficient. Even today I say the same... I am happy alone and I have formed so many habits living alone that I might find it difficult to adjust to another person in my personal space.
And then there is the other reason too, you see I am a dreamer and I have sooo many ideas and concepts about my ideal man that I doubt 1) if he really exists 2) if I can love someone else

The fear...

There is a exerting pain
Not in my heart
But somewhere deep inside
It's a fear so embedded
A fear that I might not forget
The person I never met
It's a fear that I might never love
Like I have loved that man
The pain when I hear a familiar song
And when I see his profile pics change
It's eating me alive and
I Have no more tears to  shed
It was indeed a relation very rare
And a feeling undisclosed to all
He shall forever rule my head
And I shall wait for his return

Four friends

One was filled with patience
To nurture and to love.
The next was filled with emotion
To the weakest and to the poor.
The third was a bit moody
With hidden pain and feelings too shy
Then came the disaster
Ever ready for a jokes and pranks
The four were tied by a delicate thread
Invisible and invincible
They treasured their f'ship even with distance
And promised to stay connected
With simple good nights and good mornings
Coz all were in each others thoughts and prayers;
They were meant to be always
Coz they shared their laughter and their worst fears.

Christmas

It's Christmas, it's Sunday and what do I do? I sit in front of the idiot box for 12 hrs and enjoy. Later I cook a simply dinner of aloo parata and curd. It was indeed a peaceful day

Dec 24,2016

I am 32 today and my achievements so far? Nothing

Demonetisation

Nov 8, 2016 was a revolutionary day in the history of India. Our Hon.PM made a public announcement leaving the country shocked. I still remember the first call I got regarding this, from my mom. I told they are referring to pre-2005 notes since that mission has been on a for a long time but she insisted that it is not so. I didn't believe and then I saw a post regarding the same on Facebook and I decided to change the channel from music to news and yes...all hell had broke loose.
Nov 9 and many days after that the country was in total confusion, rage and temper was on peak high. Rules made and changed trying to meet the requirements to many. People were stranded without money and the banks...well let's not talk about the banks and bankers coz nobody bothered to understand the situation they were in anyways. Public thought bankers are like ATMs, they can function 24*7 without any break and rest and they actually forgot bankers are humans too.
The only people who thought of them as humans are the family members of the few lucky ones who got to go home. The media showed the chaos amongst the public but never showed the tension and confusion of the bankers and what are the rules, strategies and adjustments being done by them to attend to maximum customera with the cash they have in stock coz trust me banks were also not warned and were equally taken by surprise.
Bankers worked continuously for 13 days and no praise to them. We cracked our heads on the tension and chaos and crowd management. In the evening we cracked our heads on the shortage across the counters and the loss we had a personal end. Still, nobody cared. People came and asked for change, but from where do we give when we are ourselves not supplied with any change.
Rules kept changing but it's us at the receiving end from the customers. How to explain to them the continuous change and the reason they can't have as much money as they want.
Yes, the public are waiting, patiently, for the change they were promised, for the black money that will be brought out and the people who will have to justify their income.
How much will be delivered?

Movie of 2016

There has been some good movies in 2016 but I would say the best were pink and dear zindagi. After Queen, I think these two movies are very much female oriented. While pink was a serious movie about the judgemental attitude of society towards modern, independent females, dear zindagi was a simple movie without any drama and in a very simple way it also dealt with the same topic. The judgmental attitude of society towards females, the way they lead a simple life and date before settling down. I think these were beautiful movies but change in society, well that won't happen fast and

Walking in the rain...!!!

I can't feel the dead cold shiver
It seems it's been forever
I've made friends with this pain
I am walking in the rain...!!!
The rain drops hide my tears
And I am smiling for my peers
They should never know what lies inside
There is nothing these eyes cannot hide
I don't know what keeps me sane
I am just walking in the rain...!!!

Once in a lifetime

Once in a lifetime this happens to everyone. Today is special. Today is 11/12/13 :-)

Sea Shells

Come walk with me

Along the sea

Where dusk sits on the land

And search with me

For shells are free

in this forgotten world

Hold me in your arms

as the sun sets on another land

where love is unknown

as this divine relation of ours

The world shall never know

your heart nor mine

but I shall remember you as mine

The one who taught me love

beyond the realms of the universe

The one who shall live in me

as I shall live in your dreams.

Burning Heart

As my borrowed time
reaches it finale
and my dreams burn
I glow a final time
in this beautiful fire.
A fire created in my heart
fuelled by my emotions
A fire that destroyed
my earthly body
and ravaged on my dreams
This fire will keep aglow
till my last breathe
and in the final exale
I shall darken the soul
Till then, my dreams
shall remain in my soul
and my heart... no more.
I shall die a happy soul
living my life to the fullest
and completing my role

 

Benaras

The purity of water
washed off my sins
The Brightness of light
lit up my soul
This is the colour
I wish to live in
The beautiful structures
and the ageless stories
Benaras, a beauty forever
To live here, to die here
To breathe this air
To touch this land

I miss that smell
I miss my heart 

By a Rocking Friend

There is this girl I remember in school
always smiling, funny and cool

I sat behind her in class, where
she talks nonstop with the girl beside her
always getting scolded by the teacher
only to resume moments later

Haha!

Happy, cheery and welcome that
she goes around in class and talks to everyone
ligthing up faces with her chit chat
ocassionally coming upto me and dropping a line

All I could speak to her was about last day's homework
at which she would give me the look
her hands busy copying from her friend's book

In the two years we had been together
I have never been able to make friends with her

But I won't forget the face
one that I would never miss in any place

I wonder...

I wonder what life would be without meeting people like you...people who always live in the virtual world... people whom I havent met for over past 10 years but still continue to be a part of your daily life just like they were more than 10-15 years back.
I know I have more life to lead but sometimes... as I continue to hangout in this virtual world I feel I am trapping myself to my past and keeping myself to a fort that I believe is safe for me(unlike the basic assumption that virtual world is unsafe)... I am loosing the art of making new friends, exploring new frontiers and experimenting new things... as I hangout with my old friends, I wonder how many new ones I have missed... I am not saying that I am unhappy with my old friends but still new ones are also a necessity, right?
I dont expect an answer to my questions, its just a simple question to the vast void out there...
As we grow older, we need more people who have known as in our childhood to make us remember our past, to keep us rooted to ground and for us to remember that they are the reason for whatever we are today.
Thank you my dear old friends whom I meet virtually everyday and the new friends whom I am yet to meet...You guys make me feel alive