Exams are S***

Im blogging at 9.03pm...im yet to start my exam preperation...its PR n Corp Comm tomorrow but the exam today has left me no hope of passing and i know for sure i will come next year also.so i might as well as do this paper also next year...today it was brand management and you know the funny thing we got the notes at 5pm the day before....similar thing today also.we got some presentations today but this doesnt have much content and way too many technical terms that i dont understand(i used to sleep in PR class...its not my fault...the timing used to be 3-6pm on SATURDAY evenings).
i checked all the previous question papers for today's exam and the questions this year was everything that never came before...how lucky am i????
so...im hoping for the best for tommorrow...to FAIL

My B'day

long time since i blogged...
it was my b'day yesterday(24th dec) but the celebration started on 23rd coz my roomie was leavin...it all started when i went to the bakery to have a cup of coffee after a big exam(wrote the 3 hr paper in an hour...lack of knowledge or too much of it you can say)and the "chettan" over there told me there is a surprise and a cake has been ordered for a b'day tomorrow...nice...the baker itself is tellin me abt the cake...im not gonna let him live in peace so i went and told the people that the surprise they planned for me is out... she(my roomie)anyways bought the cake and we had a cake cutting ceremony and on her way to the bus stop we stood in front of the bakery for 5 minutes so that our favourite "chettan" will show up and the rest is history.
24th:the day started with many people callin me and wishin and then me preparin for my media management exam(its my b'day n a sunday and im writin a stupid exam...poor me).
one of my juniors made it a point to tell our sir that its my bday so the whole college came to know abt it ...thanx dear...i kno its ur b'day on 25th dec.
then i was suddenly called(with the rest of my classmates)to our warden's shop...oh...there was a cake waitin but with "merry christmas"on it....i had to cut the cake coz its my bday...now the whole town came to kno that its my bday...thanx warden...i will get u the next time.oh...the cake cuttin song"wish u a merry xmas...wish u a happy b'day"...wow...we are a creative bunch afterall...no wonder we are into advertising.
then i enter the exam hall and my fav sir said "bday girl...keep quite...sir i wasnt talkin i was just askin a doubt)...the few who didnt kno had to kno its my b'day so they suddenly errupted into a song...for godssake guys...this is an exam hall...u dont sing here....we mourn the death of our writin capabilities and our sem which was a total waste...we celebrate only the birth of new answers...guess what...every queston this year has 38 answers in this class coz none of us know the right one.
then as i finish my exam my junior takes me to the bus stop to get a parcel...its a cake....i cant wait....the bus is at 4 so we rush and we waited there till 8...coz the bus decided to go before we reached there and the office said that the bus is yet to come...so at 8 we (that is 2 out of 4) decide to go the garage and collect the cake coz it a BLACK FOREST and im hungry to the core...i hadnt eaten anythin nor had i used the loo after 12.
we finally get the cake and reach the hostel and then i remember is eatin those beautiful stuffs....4 hrs of waitin in front of a stupid busstop and makin hell in such a way that none of the shop keepers will ever forget us...the worst scenarios in those 4 hrs...auto drivers starin at us...sittin next to a bar coz thats the only place where we had seats,...then we go to sit on some people's bikes and the owners come searchin for it...they take the bike and we shift to the next one...the games called...MUSICAL BIKES.2 gals wearin xmas caps and walkin up and down the road talkin over the phone(1 was me)...the people found it amusin....come on guys...its xmas.
the uglist was someone spittin pan from the top of the bar coz he thought we are new pillars on which he could spit(cant blame a drunk guy who has been seeing 4 "pillars" down on the road which hadnt moved for atleast 3 hrs).
after eatin the cake 2 of us decided to return to hostel coz we have to...there is an exam and thats not our hostel...i feel an urgent need of juice so i smartly went into a juice center and ordered one mango juice...he just pointed inside...sorry boss i thought u were a neatly dressed shop keeper...wouldnt have expected it if i had know its a Mal place coz i know for a fact that mals cant look so good...i was embarrased to the core still i had the juice standin next to this guy and finally he looked at me and smiled...no im not interested in smilin and plz my face is red coz of the climate....so...y did u have to say a bye and go and make me look like a ripe tomato????
weird day still i enjoyed...and now its xmas...wish u all a vey merry xmas and a happy new year

My Sister's marriage

Finally Im back to blogging.
Day-19/10/2006
Time- 9:30-10.30am(Muhurtham)
Venue- Guruvayoor Temple, Trichur
My work started very early coz my Dad and Mom were both not well...started with guests comming home
The day of the marriage started with me struggling with the sari n makeup...my sister had left for Guruvayoor the night before so that not many people will irritate her.
The worst case scenario- standing on the stage of the auditorium which had no fan in pure kanchipuram sari.i had to do it for 3-4 hrs and there i had lots of work n the worst work was smiling and talking to all the people(people i couldnt even recognise)
before this was the "thali kette" in front of the temple where we the bride and the groom ended up waiting for the bride's parents to show up.(thats where i met my bro-in-law for the first time although i used to chat with him almost everyday and talk to the badaai raja almost every week)
After the marriage the couple came to the Bride's home to meet bride's grandma and from there to his place where i also went with my uncle and his wife.
The next day was the reception which was from the guy's side(1st time i didnt do any running around in that week)
now everything is over and im back to work and so is my sister and my brand new bro (they finished their vanavasam )whom im yet to brand
so i will be back in action with more stories of my wierd life and lifestyle...till then this is S signing off...good night...adios

classmates

a moving movie by lal jose.can it be referred to as a campus movie???
im not really sure about that but all i can say is this is a movie i will recommend to anyone...the best young talents in young malayalam movie has come together to make this movie a success...good music by alex paul and sung beautifully by vineeth srinivasan and others...a movie i really connected to.
wen i was watching the movie i could really relate every character to a person in my college life and the college looked very much like the college where i studied.
this is a movie every malayalee should watch...especially any malayalee who has studied in kerala...its not necessary that you belong to the 1991 era to relate to this movie

another onam...

has come and gone...this was with the teachers day this year...brought back memories of my 12th onam wen we had both the days together...i was wearing a saree and was sanskrit teacher and after that we put the pookalam.
this year also i wore saree for onam(actually after 12th im wearing it this year only)...we had the teachers day celebration and then my friends and i went to one of my friend's place where she and i cooked (she had started last night so there wasnt much left)and there were 7 of us and her bro and his girlfriend...it was fun and after all this i was dead tired.it was also my roomie's bday so we didnt sleep the whole night and i had early morning classes and presentations.
this was one hectic onam but it was fun.the best part was making our warden keep his bike out coz we put pookalam infront of the garage...had some tension if tommy(the stary dog)will come and eat it...seems he isnt interested coz the pookalam is still there and we also put pookalam in college...we took the permission and our dean allowed coz its not a religious festival...all the mals in college were wearing set-mundu(incl.me)or set sari...wow...it was a beautiful mal feeling in this bong-dominated college

secular?

onam-the festival that we all malayalees look forward to no matter what is the age, sex and religion.i havent enjoyed this festival last year coz i was in b'lore and here there are not many malayalees and we had class(cant expect a leave in b'lore that too in a bengali dominated college)this year also will be a repetition but i feel really hurt when i heard that even christ college(our neighbours)hasnt allowed their students to wear the traditional dress.this is a college that is dominated by malayalees and according to the college...celebrating all these festivals is against the secularism of the college...so where is this secularism when all the christians have to attend the catholic meetings...why are all christians forced into it??even those who are not catholics have to attend and somethings they say or do are actually against the belief these kids were raised in...where did the college lose its secularism???

cold drinks

Kerala made a wise decision of kicking out pepsi and coke and then Karnataka followed by not permitting these drinks in and around educational institutions(dont kno how much effective that is)but i had the shock of my life when i saw an advertisement of amul saying that they are "safe to drink"???wats going on???is amul diversifying from their speciality??have they forgotten their milk n milk products???somedays before that i saw another ad saying that they are safe to invest??wen did amul become an investing company??
i want the old amul back...the amul that used to provide good chocolates and was lead by a sweet person whom i admire as a very successful intrapreneur...a person who changed the life of rural India.
now,back to cold drinks....the corporate movie is very much based on this industry and wat happens in the movie has happened in B'lore also...first there was a cry that the drinks are bad and then there was a cry that the level of pesticides are below the danger level..clever i say coz they dont say that there is no pesticide.so...do they expect us to drink those or can we do what people in gujurat did???use it on the crops coz they make a good pesticide and is cheaper than the real ones and equally effective.

memories

yesterdayi was chatting with one of my classmates and from out of the blue our topic landed on bicycles...then the whole conversation turned to the weird stuffs we used to do on our cycles as kids...the time when BMX was launched and Hero had a good sale with BSA champ...that was the time when i was able to identify the different kinds of cycle on the basis of its horn or brake sound.i used to have a BSA Kidd which was blue in colour and with pictures of bret hart on it..the day i first rode it my brake was neighbour's wall.
all those childish stuffs we discussed were so much alike...even if we belong to different parts of the country...going on long distance rides on the bike and giving parents a shock(my dad was going to register a case once)...going for exploration with friends on cycle...racing against rain but still getting wet(esp the rain in summer...wow)
then the thing we had in common was our bikes without brakes..i have no count of the number of times i have fallen from my bike.
summer vacations was the best with all the kids in the area on bikes that no other vehicle could pass by.i still remember there was a gang of four who had street cats(bmw among cycles).never knew them personally but then i used to admire that bike a lot.
when we discussed all these we were in a very nostalgic mood of us missing homeland a lot...he was missin his mountains(he is from north-east)and i was missing my greenary.then the juniors came and broke our conversation and we went back to our usual life of computers and research.

Is Bollywood running out of stories?

wats happenin to our good old bollywood???im used to bollywood remaking all the good available english movies(2006 will see 3 English remakes by Bhats)but now..is Bollywood so running out of stories that they have started remaking old hindi films...
Devdas was made 3 times in Hindi and twice in local languages...its a remake although Bhansali kept with the recent trends and decided to send SRK to England.
Umrao Jaan- another remake with Abhishek Bachchan and Aisharya Rai...on the sets of which the romance happend..i will be delighted if they dont marry(read:lots of Indians wil be happy)
now,its Don and Sholay...wats going on guys??
doenst bollywood have good stories anymore??
copying from other languages are very very prominent also...i can only speak about Priyadarshan remaking all the good malayalam movies and then totally destroying it...i was sad to see the remake of my "punjabi house" to "chup chupke"...it was just a change of cast and dialogue-by-dialogue translation
c'mon guys...give us something good and new...something like Munnabhai and corporate(not many people could relate to the latter...u have to be in the industry to understand this...like Page3...thats the real world of newspapers)
now that comedy alone is successful and originally i wouldnt mind keping my brains out and going for the movie but plz dont give us the remakes...all things look good only in its origianlly format...i kno its a mental block but i cant get over it...i cant replace the Big B with SRK

Disney

all these days we had a guest lecturer from Disney...i wasnt much interested in class but today as she was talking about Disney cartoons i was really touched...the charcters i think anyone in the world can relate to...CN only had Tom N Jerry(they are an epic)but nothing can ever beat the likes of mickey n minnie mouse n all...i still remember watching Beauty And the Beast and feeling sad(my sis was crying and i think even today she will)...the cute seven dwarfs were created in 1937 but i can still relate to it.
This is the year of cindrellabration...Disney has a policy of telecasting a movie and then putting it away for the next seven years...so this is the year when cindrella will be brought back and the WHOLE WORLD will be celebrating this...isnt it cool...btw,they take a seven year gap coz they think 7 years makeup a generation.

a light in my life

when the going gets tough...the tough gets going...true...and when there are friends on whom you can depend even at midnight it really does make a differnce...this has been happening to me the whole week...first i met my best friend(female)on sunday and then i met my friend in the evening(he is a new addition to my list of friends but im comfy with him)...then as the week proceeded i got back a friend whom i had lost under unusual circumstances...a friend for whom i have always wished i was with... a friend on who's b'day i used to cry coz i couldnt wish him...a friend who missed me as much as i missed him.
it all started with me going on okut and then suddenly seeing his invitation for friendship..man this is a dream come true..then i had the major shock of my life when i saw that he was married but then anything is possible over the 2 years when we were not in contact.
i met him today...after a gap of 2 years...it felt as if i was back in my school and with my friend...a guy with whom i was extremly comfy with..a guy who knew me like the back of his own hands...a guy who has loved me just like i loved me...a guy who still loves me just like i still love him
im gratefull to god for giving me back in my life,i feel as if a part of my life has been given back to me and when i look back to the amount of tears that i have spilled over his one and only b'day card he sent me i feel as that all those have had its affect...all those nights of tears and lonliness...i can finally rest in peace
Thanx to orkut also:)

bad day

for a goody-goody person like me who makes it a point to attend classes everyday...i just had the worst day when i bunked class for the first time in the past 2 years.I WAS CAUGHT and it was because the person who was teaching makes his appearence once in a week and also because 2 of my close friends in college also decided to bunk for various other reasons and it seemed as if it was a planned one...this bunkung happened on saturday and on sunday i got the memo and i realised that 6 of us had bunked the class that day.we went to meet our sir on monday who told us to meet ma'am and then enter class...we met her and she just said "u ned not attend any further classes but can write the exam"...wow!!!
on tuesday we were called and made to pay a fine of 100rs each.
i always had a good impression about my faculity but the way they behaved when they weren't ready to listen to our excuses and just told us to stay away from class really hurt me and cant they realise that they are playing with our future here???
this may sound very objective from my side but i dont think this is the way that faculity should behave...student's future should be their priority and should be ready to listen to excuses.

no blogging???

its been somedays since i blogged....mainly coz people in India couldnt access blogspot.
blogging is all about speaking your mind and i dont think it was right that it was blocked for somedays especially when the bomb blasts happened coz these are the times when people really wish to say whats there in their minds....now this is just an excuse im making coz my mental state was a bit disturbed(no i didnt have to go to a mental hospital)...so let this be a blog to tell my friends out there that im back blogging and of course im back orkuttin.

back to classes

its back ot classes after a gap of 10 days...i just cant believe that im actually a senior in Master's.is life flowing a bit too fast?
the new bakras have come and soon they will realise what sort of a jungle it is out here especially the new rule of no t-shirs for girls have come...its gonna be hell but then thats the real world out there i guess.

exams over...now what????

the big burden, those sleppless nights, those beautifully printed papers and those answer sheets for which i will get the highest in cleanliness...its all over.a year has gone by and i still feel i havent learnt anything...is it natural?
i will be doing my specialisation from this year and i feel i am not ready for it?
im tensed...about the world outside...i have seen the nasty part of amny things but i have never seen the nasty part of corporate sector...only the good ones i have seen.
i know the reason that all students are sent on internships is to make them understand "its a nasty world out there and you better be prepared"
i think i am too protected in life

the best day of my life

today is the best day of my life...i met my best friend after a gap of 5 years...the last time we met we were in 11th and now we both are doing my master's...it was fun although i had to wait in front of Bangalore Central from 9-10 (i made sure that all the shops do open and the guards in ICICI Bank wont forget me soon).she had come with her sister and we went to garuda mall and then it was chumma roaming...we were talking all this time and the places we went were the least important.but it was fun.we were talking about the past...how i was made to sit next to her by our ma'am in 9th std coz i was very talkative and at the end of the year ma'am realised her mistake coz i made all the people around me talkative...it was good coz through that i got a friend for life...she left after her 10th to Kuwait and did her graduation in Bangalore...at that time i promised her that i will reach b'lore...but when i came she went to Chennai.
it was always she who used to write to me first because i was always home while she went roaming throughout the world and this time when i went home for four days i got her letter (after almost an year) and when she told me that she is reaching b'lore i was very excited(she didnt know that i was studying in b'lore)and today we finally met.
this is a relation that i am very proud about for a simple fact that we studied together for only 10 months but we kept the friendship going through letters(and at times calls) for the past 5 years.there were times when we never wrote for months together but still she will write with her new address and we again will begin writing as if nothing happened.the gap when we never had touch with eachother never made us apart but brought us more and more close and i know i am very very lucky to get a friend like her...she is a gem to be treasured forever and ever and i know as the years go by our relation will grow and i always pray for that...and also pray that she will comeback to b'lore
i dont know how good i have been in expressing my feelings but there are certain things that can only be felt and not expressed with words and this is one.
you might say this is very pecular from my last blog where i say that i am detached from all my friends and now i sound as if i am very close to this girl...well let me clarify that by saying i am very detached from her because there were times in the past one year where i used to wonder where this girl is and why she is not writing to me but i never cried over it and that is detachement for me.

friendship and emotions

well...thats a very dificult concept for me...its a concept alright coz i dont feel it.there was a time when i used to live for my friends but my first year in graduation taught me that its just not worth it.we expect our "best friends" to be with you when you are all alone but no they never are.i know many people will disagree with this statement but there is a simple thing that life has taught me- you are born alone and you will live alone and die alone.i have made many friends but I never get emotionally involved with anyone.this makes me happy and when they leave me suddenly I never feel sad…I know when someone leaves me someother person will come.i know the new person cannot replace the other.yesterday, one of my friends and I had a fight and he left me forever.but im not hurt and when he called me at 2.30AM I just kept my phone on silent.i don’t wish to talk to this guy who cannot understand me and is not ready to listen to me.
Im not sad neither am I happy…im leading my life same as ever and today I deleted all his mails from my inbox(I had a folder in his name with atleast 50 mails of his)…now what do you think I am?some people think im very cold-hearted and some say I have a heart of stone.no that’s not true coz I love my family a lot(that’s only my dad, mom, sis, grandma) and im very attached to them(don’t show it much) and if something happens to them then I know I will never be able to tolerate it….

Fanaa

i was just watching Fanaa.the hindi movie by Kunal Kohli which is a big hit in India at present.
i could find only 2 reasons o watch this movie:
1)superb dialogues.i actually cant believe that a person who has made movies like HumTum(not that its bad)can actually write such beautiful shayaris and Aamir Khan has done a beautiful part in delivering these.
2)KAJOL.she looks goregeous. she rocks in this movie and i am happy that she has made a comeback.the hindi movie industry was really missing this talented actress.i hope she sticks around and entertain us with lots more of good movies.
the main 2 songs are good(mere haath mein and suhan alla)
the story line is a bit too exaggerated and at times hard to believe...a good movie but im happy i didnt waste money in a theatre and stuck our old comp lab

due to public demand

i was chatting with my sister yesterday and she told me that im the most complex person in the whole family...i asked her to explain how but sadly she couldnt.i wonder why she feels that...is it coz she doesnt know me well(but i am very much like her)or is it coz she never tried to understand(possibility).i am pretty sure my Mom wont agree to wha she said coz according to her my sister is very complex and we will never understand what she is thinking while i am very expressive and open...i thought about this a lot yesterday(its better than studying media laws) and i reached at a conclusion...all humans are very complex and one person cannot understand the other as a whole coz sometimes as humans we will never understand ourselves well so how can we understand other humans...what do you say?

exams

im supposed to be studying now..but im not as u can see for the simple reason that i dont feel like it.i really wish to know who brought the theory of exams into this world...whoever he/she is i really wish to kill that person(lucky he/she is coz they didnt have to die a HORRIBLE death)i also wish to know who brought the theory of "education" into the world...now i know that India has a long history of "gurukulam" education and i really support that coz its more practical...thats what we need...dont u feel so? i love studying...especially law and maths(but im no genius anyone who knows me can vouch for that)and tommorrow it is law for me but i just dont feel like studying and if i flunk i have to reappear the next year(another crappy system i say)...what do i do?

life is...

life is flowing
in some direction...
i just cant realise
where its takin me
im a confused soul
u kno y?
coz i dont ko directions
im bad in it
i wak up late...so dont kno my east
and i sleep early...so which is west?
as for the rest...they depend on these
and i depend on my instinct
which always cheats me in these...
hehehe....help me
get me a compass someone
my birthday is on...30 feb 3050