Back to Kerala

I am back to my homeland but i dont feel as if i belong here anymore. I am here for many other people not for myself. I hope i can make myself at home again, in my own house but i am feeling very detached as if it is some temporary arrangement
The feeling of being back home should be nostalgic and full of hopes but i am all in for a cultural shock and pressured.
Work pressure, life pressure and other people's pressure of expectations. I am unable to sustain. My clear division of personal and professional life is maligned. This pressure might give me a breakdown or make me run away