The fear...

There is a exerting pain
Not in my heart
But somewhere deep inside
It's a fear so embedded
A fear that I might not forget
The person I never met
It's a fear that I might never love
Like I have loved that man
The pain when I hear a familiar song
And when I see his profile pics change
It's eating me alive and
I Have no more tears to  shed
It was indeed a relation very rare
And a feeling undisclosed to all
He shall forever rule my head
And I shall wait for his return

Four friends

One was filled with patience
To nurture and to love.
The next was filled with emotion
To the weakest and to the poor.
The third was a bit moody
With hidden pain and feelings too shy
Then came the disaster
Ever ready for a jokes and pranks
The four were tied by a delicate thread
Invisible and invincible
They treasured their f'ship even with distance
And promised to stay connected
With simple good nights and good mornings
Coz all were in each others thoughts and prayers;
They were meant to be always
Coz they shared their laughter and their worst fears.

Christmas

It's Christmas, it's Sunday and what do I do? I sit in front of the idiot box for 12 hrs and enjoy. Later I cook a simply dinner of aloo parata and curd. It was indeed a peaceful day

Dec 24,2016

I am 32 today and my achievements so far? Nothing

Demonetisation

Nov 8, 2016 was a revolutionary day in the history of India. Our Hon.PM made a public announcement leaving the country shocked. I still remember the first call I got regarding this, from my mom. I told they are referring to pre-2005 notes since that mission has been on a for a long time but she insisted that it is not so. I didn't believe and then I saw a post regarding the same on Facebook and I decided to change the channel from music to news and yes...all hell had broke loose.
Nov 9 and many days after that the country was in total confusion, rage and temper was on peak high. Rules made and changed trying to meet the requirements to many. People were stranded without money and the banks...well let's not talk about the banks and bankers coz nobody bothered to understand the situation they were in anyways. Public thought bankers are like ATMs, they can function 24*7 without any break and rest and they actually forgot bankers are humans too.
The only people who thought of them as humans are the family members of the few lucky ones who got to go home. The media showed the chaos amongst the public but never showed the tension and confusion of the bankers and what are the rules, strategies and adjustments being done by them to attend to maximum customera with the cash they have in stock coz trust me banks were also not warned and were equally taken by surprise.
Bankers worked continuously for 13 days and no praise to them. We cracked our heads on the tension and chaos and crowd management. In the evening we cracked our heads on the shortage across the counters and the loss we had a personal end. Still, nobody cared. People came and asked for change, but from where do we give when we are ourselves not supplied with any change.
Rules kept changing but it's us at the receiving end from the customers. How to explain to them the continuous change and the reason they can't have as much money as they want.
Yes, the public are waiting, patiently, for the change they were promised, for the black money that will be brought out and the people who will have to justify their income.
How much will be delivered?

Movie of 2016

There has been some good movies in 2016 but I would say the best were pink and dear zindagi. After Queen, I think these two movies are very much female oriented. While pink was a serious movie about the judgemental attitude of society towards modern, independent females, dear zindagi was a simple movie without any drama and in a very simple way it also dealt with the same topic. The judgmental attitude of society towards females, the way they lead a simple life and date before settling down. I think these were beautiful movies but change in society, well that won't happen fast and

Walking in the rain...!!!

I can't feel the dead cold shiver
It seems it's been forever
I've made friends with this pain
I am walking in the rain...!!!
The rain drops hide my tears
And I am smiling for my peers
They should never know what lies inside
There is nothing these eyes cannot hide
I don't know what keeps me sane
I am just walking in the rain...!!!

Once in a lifetime

Once in a lifetime this happens to everyone. Today is special. Today is 11/12/13 :-)

Sea Shells

Come walk with me

Along the sea

Where dusk sits on the land

And search with me

For shells are free

in this forgotten world

Hold me in your arms

as the sun sets on another land

where love is unknown

as this divine relation of ours

The world shall never know

your heart nor mine

but I shall remember you as mine

The one who taught me love

beyond the realms of the universe

The one who shall live in me

as I shall live in your dreams.

Burning Heart

As my borrowed time
reaches it finale
and my dreams burn
I glow a final time
in this beautiful fire.
A fire created in my heart
fuelled by my emotions
A fire that destroyed
my earthly body
and ravaged on my dreams
This fire will keep aglow
till my last breathe
and in the final exale
I shall darken the soul
Till then, my dreams
shall remain in my soul
and my heart... no more.
I shall die a happy soul
living my life to the fullest
and completing my role

 

Benaras

The purity of water
washed off my sins
The Brightness of light
lit up my soul
This is the colour
I wish to live in
The beautiful structures
and the ageless stories
Benaras, a beauty forever
To live here, to die here
To breathe this air
To touch this land

I miss that smell
I miss my heart 

By a Rocking Friend

There is this girl I remember in school
always smiling, funny and cool

I sat behind her in class, where
she talks nonstop with the girl beside her
always getting scolded by the teacher
only to resume moments later

Haha!

Happy, cheery and welcome that
she goes around in class and talks to everyone
ligthing up faces with her chit chat
ocassionally coming upto me and dropping a line

All I could speak to her was about last day's homework
at which she would give me the look
her hands busy copying from her friend's book

In the two years we had been together
I have never been able to make friends with her

But I won't forget the face
one that I would never miss in any place

I wonder...

I wonder what life would be without meeting people like you...people who always live in the virtual world... people whom I havent met for over past 10 years but still continue to be a part of your daily life just like they were more than 10-15 years back.
I know I have more life to lead but sometimes... as I continue to hangout in this virtual world I feel I am trapping myself to my past and keeping myself to a fort that I believe is safe for me(unlike the basic assumption that virtual world is unsafe)... I am loosing the art of making new friends, exploring new frontiers and experimenting new things... as I hangout with my old friends, I wonder how many new ones I have missed... I am not saying that I am unhappy with my old friends but still new ones are also a necessity, right?
I dont expect an answer to my questions, its just a simple question to the vast void out there...
As we grow older, we need more people who have known as in our childhood to make us remember our past, to keep us rooted to ground and for us to remember that they are the reason for whatever we are today.
Thank you my dear old friends whom I meet virtually everyday and the new friends whom I am yet to meet...You guys make me feel alive

Goodbye My Love

As I realize what happened between us
I do realize that I am loosing my lover
My best friend and my guide in life

As I realize that the hands that held me once
And the lips that kissed me once
Now belong to someone else…
I realize that I have lost everything that I ever believed in

I have lost my life and my heart
That you took away from me
I have lost my body and my mind
That was always yours from start

You could never take my spirit
You never could break my dreams
I still have myself
I still have my soul.

Dreams

Dreams keep me alive
they give me a purpose
Dreams keep me sane
and gives me hope
Dreams keep me happy
when sadness engulf me
Dreams....they are most beautiful
when it can be fullfilled
But the unrealistic dreams
make me wish to live further
Dreams...they are indeed special
for life without you
would be a world without sunlight

The year gone by

2011...it has been a very intersting and happening year for me. Made lots of new friends, fought with a few... some people whom I knew from before became close and some went away. Got confirmed in a job that I am yet to start liking but I know I will be here for some more time. I will always cherish this year for this has taught me new things about love and friendship. I know the next year is going to give me pain but then if there is no sadness, will we ever remember God. I am just praying that God will be kind enough to make the pain obselete. Career wise, I have learnt lots of things and I have learnt a bit of money management and people management. I have met the person who can make me do anything that I hate just to see a smile on that face...thats my neice.
I have cried for the dead and my sincere apologies to all those friends whom I hurt a lot. I hope the new year 2012 is better than 2011 and all the love that was showered on me, just continue. Thank you friends and family for making my life worth living...without you people I will not be what I am today.

Dilemma

I am in a dilemma and last night I realised what a pathetic friend I am....long time, on a very pleasant evening in Hyd I had promised a friend that I will attend his marriage, no matter where I am and when the function is. But, the marriage started today and I am still sitting in Bangalore. I was unable to keep my word and I am terribly ashamed. He called me yesterday and the first thing he asked me is when I am reaching. He was absolutly sure that I am coming but I couldnt make it. I am a bad friend and I hope someday you'll forgive me, N...and I wish you and H a very happy beautiful married life. May you both be blessed with the best of whatever you ever wish for and the proof that is your marriage itself

New Assignment

On May 15, 2011, a batch of 2500 people (approx) completed two years probation in SBI. I am one amongst them...many people also got their assignments for the next 3 years but the people belonging to our circle are yet to get it
But, I got my first assignment...work as BM-Cum-Accountant for 3 days in a branch that has 13 staff. Everyone told me that I can do it and I should look at it as a challenge. I was ready for it, a bit frustrated at my controllers but still ready...
But the challenge came with a single customer...she approached me yesterday...she came in puffing because apparently she had gone to the old premises and she didnt know we had shifted which had happened in February. I was shocked.
Then she told, she wants to operate the locker but couldnt remember the locker number, we managed to find that also...then she told us that there is a possibility that rent was due but not deducted from her account. She was out of town for a long time, she explained
She started talking very fast and I found her very weird and slowly the reason for it came out, she was coming to Bangalore after a very long time, her son had just passed away last year.He was 24 years and had had cancer. She was telling me all these and I was not sure how to respond. I was just shocked when she had told she was just coming out of depression...it really must have been pathetic....I simply didnt know how to face this challenge!!!

An Era Comes to an End

Well...from the title it might seem as a great person has died...he was a great but for all the wrong reasons...Osama Bin Laden...a single person who shocked the whole world and brought the largest democracy to a stand still...A real terror...the Enemy No.1 of the world
But its a sad way in which he died...from what I hear he was seeing the sunset of his own life and he was attacked (after a long tracking)...and to see a whole country cheer and celebrate a person's death was just too much to digest and unexpected from a civilised world...i felt as if i was picturising an image of the 16th century where many women were supposed to be "witches" and they were either drowned or burnt alive while men watched and celebrated.
I agree to the fact that what he did to the people of that country was bad and totally uncivilised but "eye for an eye will make the whole world blind"...im not telling that he should be allowed to live but such a big country...im sure they would have had resources to destroy the force, curb his intentions and arrest the main people...make sure they never repeat their actions and no one in future ever does it. What have you gained by killing a person in cold-blood...just blood on your hands and a tag of "murderer"
P.S:whatever is written here are my personal thoughts, dont arrest me for this

Movie

I watched The King's Speech, fell in love with English all over again I watched Christian Brothers and fell in love with Sharath Kumar I watched Urumi and I am yet to decide what hit me!!!